Bersalah!

syg tau sume nih salah syg
syg tau syg la punce sume nih
syg xder niat semue nih
syg btol2 mintak maaf.

hmm :'(

Sujud Syukur :')

YA ALLAH!

Hari nih aku bersyukur sgt2 kepadeMU ya Allah!! ari nih aku bnyk belajar erti semangat dan erti keluarge..
aku xtau nak ckp pe lagi..aku dh bnyak berdose dengan Mu Ya Allah..!! aku bnyak memikirkan tentang dunie.
Aku tau aku hambe yang jahil..aku hambe yang bnyak berdose kepadaMu ya Allah..


Alhamdulillah aku bersujud syukur kerane Engkau telah ketemukan aku dengan seorang insan yang sungguh istimewe buatku..aku menerima dengan hati yang terbuke dengan penuh rase bersyukur..Aku sangat bersyukur kepadeMu Ya Allah!! ;')

Nur Anis!

Semenjak kite kenal, syg mengaku syg bnyak sakit hati..sakit hati mungkin sebab cerite lame bby..syg mmg kadang2 bile bby cite psal cerite lame bby, syg rase terkilan..kenape sekarang baru lah muncul kenalan2 bby yg lame..syg mmg rase beban sgt..syg rase DOWN sgt..tp Allah telah kuatkan semangat syg..syg tau nih sume dugaan dari Allah..syg terime!!! SYG TERIME!!! syg ikhlas dengan bby! syg x penah rase seikhlas mcm nih..
syg arap bby x kan tinggalkan syg!!! syg merayu! syg xder spe2 melainkan ALLAH dan BBY!!! :')


Syg tau bby berharge buat syg!!! mungkin semue lelaki mahukan kelebihan keatas setiap pasangannye..tp bg syg, bby lah segalenye..ape yg syg tgk kat bby, pelbagai sudut syg tgk bby sume beharge.. :') pecayelah bby!

*hati bby
*kasih syg bby yg bby bg kat syg
*perhatian yg bby bg kat syg
*kemanjaan yg bby bg kat syg
*keikhlasan yg bby bg
*kasih syg keluarge bby
*tangisan gembire yg bby tunjukkan kat syg
*semangat bby buat syg.

bnyak lagi tp syg lupe buat mase nih. 


NUR ANIS! sye syg awak! awak lah segalenye buat saye..saye hargai kasih sayang awak, cinte awak dan keikhlasan awak tok bersame dengan sye..:')


When I saw you I was afraid to meet you. When I met you I was afraid to kiss you. When I kissed you I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you, I am afraid to lose you.

SYG TAU SYG BNYAK WAT SALAH DENGAN BBY..
SYG MINTAK MAAF KALAU DH BNYAK KALI SAKITKAN HATI BBY..

I LOVE U SO MUCH!

ikhlas dari air mate tunangmu. FUAD <3

Luahan Seorang Lelaki. :')

DATE : 25 Disember 2011

DAY : SUNDAY

LOCATION : Enstek, Sepang

TIME : 4.35pm

auucakk!! hee *masok air jap! 


today, aku nak story skit ape yg aku rase sepanjang bersame tuan pnye blog nih..aku trpakse hack sebab aku x der blog..*sebenarnye ade tp lupe password.-,- (bby, pinjam jap aee)
mmg x terlintas dlm pemikiran dan pemahaman nih cm ner leh jumpe dgn tuan pnye blog..
segale yg di UPDATE dlm blog nih oleh tuan pnye blog nih mmg dari ikhlas dari hati die sendri..
mmg aku mengaku, aku bace setiap post yg die wat mmg telah memecah tradisi dalam hidup aku..aku nih sebenarnye ssh nak keluarkan air mate..aku keras hati.!!
BUT..!!
bile bersame hidup dgn die, aku rase diri aku nih mmg cukup sempurne..


to NUR ANIS BT ABU BAKAR CHIA!!


bby, syg selame nih mmg sangke dpt bby..syg dlu mmg pk nak dpt teman hidup yg sempurne dari awal perkenalan..syg tau kite kenal dengan care yg x sedap kalau didengar..tp Allah mmg berikan ujian kat setiap hambaNye..syg terime dengan hati yg terbuke :) 


syg tau syg nih bukannye sempurne tp syg dh set dlm kepale otak nih untuk terime bby seadenye..xkesah la org laen nak ckp ape..tp mmg syg terime bby walau ape keadaan sekali pun..dalam keadaan SUSAH dan SENANG! syg terime bby but at the same time syg nak UBAH bby menjadi yang lagi baik..itu tanggungjawab seorang lelaki kan terhadap pasangan mereka masing2 kan..mmg mule2 syg rase nih tanggungjawab paling berat yg pernah syg pikul..syg kuatkan semangat syg untuk mengubah hidup KITE menjadi lagi baik..tp sekarang dh terbiase SEBAB dlm mase yg same bby bg feedback yg positive..mmg mule2 syg mengaku bby slalu pk negative kan...tp syg pakse bby utk sentiase berfikiran positive..syg pakse bby bukan sebab pe, syg xnak bby nnti do a stupid things disebabkan pemikiran negative tuh..
IM SO WORRIED BOUT U!!!


syg bangge dengan bby sebab u slowly change your life kepade yg baik..syg pun nak berubah menjadi lagi baik, tp dalam mase yg same syg nak berubah bersame org yg syg SYG! 


MEMORIES!!
cite psal bende nih mmg kite bnyak memori kan...memori best n x best.! xnak cite sebab bby dh cite semuenye kat blog bby kan. :) 


BANGGE!!!
Wow!! itu jer perkataan yg syg leh ckp psal your family..syg happy GILE bile bersame dgn family bby..syg dari dlu mmg nak family cm uh..now, syg dh rase mcm part of your family..syg mmg terharu bile dgn family bby sbb selame nih syg xpenah rase bahagie cm uh..mmg mule2 tuh mmg agak kekok..tp semalam mmg syg dh rase cm dh biase..syg cool gile xtau sebab ape..dpt lak time kite jalan2 kat mall same2.wow!! dpt lak syg dukung adam / PUTRA (anak akak)..jalan pulak dgn bby..syg dukung, bby tolak troley..hee syg rase cm anak sendri dh..:') seriously syg rse happy sgt2!!






ANIS!,
syg nak bby tau syg mmg sygkan bby..syg mmg akan buat ape jer bile bersame bby..kalau kite gadoh, syg seriously akan salahkan diri sendri SEBAB bby bersalah kerane semuenye bermule sebab syg..kalau syg x start dlu bby xkan wat cm uh kan :') thats why syg salahkan diri sendri..bukan suke2 tp mmg kenyataan..
syg xsuke tgk bby merane, sedih, n kecewe sebab syg..syg mmg masok air but at the same time syg jage ati bby..syg nak jadi yg terbaik buat bby..THAT MY PROMISE!! 


SAYE SAYANG AWAK NUR ANIS!! 
*syg buat luahan hati nih sambil dgr lagu kite..bby tau kan :') 
*sebenarnye bnyak agi yg syg nak ckp..tp nnti2 la ye..syg update yg baru..






to ALL PEOPLE AROUND Nur Anis!!
*please respect our relationship! aku nak korang tau yang anis bukan mcm dlu..die seorang hamba Allah yg ingankan perubahan yg terbaik buat diri nye..please phm k.! aku MERAYU.!


BILE ALLAH SYGKAN SYG DULU..BBY JAGE DIRI BAIK2 K :') 
syg xkanlupe bby sampai bile2 & syg akan sepanjang mase doakan bby! :')

I LOVE U SO MUCH NUR ANIS BT ABU BAKAR CHIA!

salam dari tunang mu. FUAD <3


I MISS U SO MUCH! :'( i wish u were here!

Do You Remember ^_^

DATE : 25 DECEMBER 2011

DAY : SUNDAY

LOCATION : PENDAMAR VILLA ( MY SIS HOUSE )

TIME : 3:30 A.M

              FIREWORKS SEEMS SO BEAUTIFUL WHEN WE WATCH . . . SHOPPING SEEMS 

SO GOOD FOR A GIRLS . . . ROADS SEEMS SO BUSY BECAUSE OF CHRISTMAS . . .

PEOPLE SEEMS SO HAPPY FOR CELEBRATING CHRISTMAS . . . BUT . . .

SUDDENLY EVERYTHING SEEMS SO COLD . . . FIREWORKS SEEMS SO EMOTIONLESS . . .

ROADS SEEMS SO DARK . . . SPEECHLESS . . . SADNESS . . . EMPTY . . .

I JUST HOPE YOU WERE HERE . . .

               YOU ARE MY REASON FOR EVERYTHING . . . I REALIZE I CAN'T DO ANYTHING . . 

I CAN'T THINK STRAIGHT . . . I CAN'T FEEL ANYTHING . . . JUST BECAUSE I CAN'T

SENSE YOU BESIDE ME . . . I FEEL YOU IN SIDE MY HEART . . . BUT MY EYES WERE

BLIND . . .  I CAN'T SEE YOU IN THE REAL TIME . . . AM I HAVE BEEN BLIND BY MY 

FEELING JUST BECAUSE I CAN'T SEE YOU ? ? ? 

              TEARS . . . SOMETIMES FEEL SO MEANINGFUL FOR EVERY DROP WHEN 

IT REACHES TO THE GROUND . . . AM I HURT ? ? ?   NO . . . I JUST FEEL SO

MISERABLE MISSING YOU . . .  I'M JUST SO HAPPY THAT YOU FINALLY GETTING

A FAMILY THAT YOU ALWAYS WANTED . . . I WANT YOU FEEL SO COMFORT BEING

WITH MY FAMILY . . . WE ARE JUST A NORMAL HAPPY FAMILY . . . NOT SO

RICH . . . NOT SO POOR . . . NOT SO EDUCATED . . . NOT SO POOR EDUCATED . . .

JUST TRYING THE BEST FOR EACH OTHER . . . WILL THAT BE ENOUGH ? ? ?

I CAN'T READ YOUR THOUGHT . . . I JUST WANT YOU TO SEE IT FOR YOUR SELF . . .

          PRAY . . . JUST PRAY . . . DEAR ALLAH . . . FORGIVE MY SINS . . . FORGIVE MY

PAST . . . FORGIVE MY LOVE ONES SINS . . . FORGIVE MY EVERYTHING . . . I KNOW

I AM SO BAD WHEN I'M IN THE PAST . . . TILL SOMETIMES I DON'T DESERVE HIM

BECAUSE HE IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE FOR ME . . . YOU SAID GOOD PERSON 

FOR A GOOD PERSON . . . BUT I'M NOT A GOOD PERSON AT ALL . . . I WANNA 

CHANGE FOR HIM . . . I DON'T HAVE MANY TO OFFER TO HIM . . . DEAR ALLAH

BE WITH ME . . . I NEED STRENGTH TO CHANGE . . . I NEED YOUR FORGIVENESS

TO LIVE IN THIS WONDERFUL LIFE . . . I NEED YOUR BLESSING TO LIVE WITH

THE PERSON THAT I LOVE BECAUSE THIS TIME I REALLY SET MY MIND THAT HE IS

THE LAST . . . I'M TIRED OF SEARCHING FOR ANOTHER MAN . . . HE LOVES ME

AS MUCH AS I DO . . . THAT IS ENOUGH FOR ME . . . GIVE ME COURAGE TO TAKE HIM

AS MY FUTURE HUSBAND UNTIL WE FINALLY MEET IN HEAVEN . . .

           EVERY TIME I CLOSE MY EYES TO GO TO SLEEP I PICK OUT MY FAVOURITE

MEMORY OF US . . . THE PHOTOS . . . THE FLASH BACK MEMORIES . . . OH HOW I

WISH THE TIME COULD STOP AND LET ME JUST SEE YOUR FACE . . . THE MEMORY 

OF YOU . . .   CAN YOU REMEMBER WHEN I WAS LYING ON YOU AND WE WERE

LAUGHING SO HARD THAT WE LAUGHED EVEN MORE JUST BECAUSE IT WAS SO FUN

TO LAUGH . . . YOUR EYES . . . YOUR SMILE . . . MAKES ME FEELS LIKE FALLING . . .

OVER AND OVER AGAIN . . . FALLING IN THE PLACE LIKE HEAVEN . . . WHEN 

EVERYTHING TURNS SWEETS . . . COLOURFUL . . . HAPPY . . . FLYING . . .

            DO YOU REMEMBER . . . WHEN WE MAKE A JOKE AND WE LAUGH . . .

THEN SUDDENLY WE STOP LAUGHING AND LOOK AT EACH OTHER AND SMILE . . .

JUST TO SEE EACH OTHER FACE . . . JUST TO SEE YOUR EYES . . . JUST TO SEE

YOUR LIPS . . . JUST TO SEE YOUR HAIR . . . HOW I AM GOING TO MISS THAT 

FACE WHEN WE WERE FAR APART . . . THEN I WILL LAY MY HEAD TOWARDS YOUR

NECK JUST TO SMELL YOUR BREATH AND YOUR BODY . . . OUH HOW I MISS 

THAT SMELL . . .

               DO YOU REMEMBER . . . WHEN I WAS'NT MY SELF BECAUSE OF YOUR

Jr . . . I FOLLOW MY MOOD COMPLETELY AND DID'NT THINK ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS

AND YOU COME TO ME AND ADMIT IT WAS YOUR FAULT . . . EVEN THOUGH I KNOW

IT IS MY FAULT . . . EVERYTIME WE FIGHT I JUST DON'T WANNA TALK TO YOU

AND YOU GET SO WORRIED . . . THEN YOU FIND ME BACK . . . YOU JUST DON'T 

LEAVE ME LIKE THAT . . . YOUR GENEROSITY . . .  

             DO YOU REMEMBER . . . WHEN I SAID THAT I AM TURNING INTO A UGLY

GIRL . . . MY THIGHT WERE BIGGER . . . MY STOMACH WERE FATTER . . . MY 

SHAPE IS BECOME BIGGER . . . THAT I'M GROWING INTO A FAT PERSON . . .

THEN YOU SAID . . . AS LONG AS I ONLY SEES YOU IN MY HEART IT DOESN'T MATTER

HOW UGLY OR FAT I AM , I'LL BE THE LUCKIEST GUY ANYWAY . . . IT TOUCHES

MY HEART . . . THE WAY YOU MAKE ME FEEL . . .

           DO YOU REMEMBER . . . WHEN WE WERE SITTING AT THE MAMAK RESTAURANT

AND I SIT INSIDE AND YOU SIT OUT SIDE NEAR THE WALK SIDE AND YOU PULL

MY CHAIR TOWARDS YOU WHEN I AM ALREADY NEAR YOU BUT YOU STILL PULL

MY CHAIR TOWARDS YOU JUST FOR ME TO BE EVEN NEARER TO YOU . . . AND 

SUDDENLY YOU PUT YOUR HANDS AT MY WAIST AND PUSH IT TOWARDS YOUR 

BODY JUST TO MAKE SURE I AM NEAR YOU AND MAKE SURE I AM BESIDE YOU . . .

AS IT WOULD HAVE BEEN THE MOST NATURAL THING IN THE WORLD . . .

HOW MUCH YOU MATTER TO ME . . .

         WHAT IS THE MOST IMPORTANT TO ME IS THE ONLY YOU . . . THAT ALLAH

HAS CREATED YOU JUST FOR ME . . . SINCE I MEET YOU THAT NIGHT I HAVE BEEN

PRAYING AND THANKS TO ALLAH FOR GIVING ME THE CHANCE TO MEET YOU

EVERYDAY . . . GIVING ME LIFE TO WATCH WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN ACHIEVE IN

YOUR LIFE . . . HAPPY . . . SAD . . . STRESS . . . LOSS . . . TIRED . . . ALL YOUR 

FEELINGS YOU SHARED . . . AND FOR THAT I THANK YOU FOR YOUR EXISTENCE

IN MY LIFE . . . :')

WHAT MAKE ME MISSING YOU SO MUCH :

* OUR MEMORY

* OUR PHOTOS

* OUR EXPERIENCE

* YOUR SMELL

* YOUR GENEROSITY

* THE WAY YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I AM WORTH FOR YOU TO FIGHT FOR

* HOW MUCH YOU MATTER FOR ME

* YOUR SACRIFICE 

* YOUR ACTION TO PROTECT ME 

I MISS YOU SAYANG . . . I HOPE YOU STAY SAFE AND STAY HEALTHY AS ALWAYS . . .

HAVE A GOOD REST SAYANG . . .

P/S : HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD TIME WITH MY FAMILY . . . I WILL TRY MY BEST

        TO IMPRESS YOUR FAMILY ^_^

REMEMBERING THE MEMORIES

DATE : 22 DECEMBER 2011
DAY : THURSDAY
LOCATION : BRUNSFIELD
TIME : 6:27 P.M





         WAITING FOR YOU IS THE MOST HARDEST THINGS THAT HAPPEN IN MY LIFE . . .

MY HEART IS FULL OF WORRIES . . . FULL OF BORED EACH TIME YOU ARE NOT

BESIDE ME . . . DID YOU REMEMBER ME WHEN YOU BUSY WITH YOUR LIFE ? ? ?

YAAA I KNOW YOU ALWAYS SAID YOU REMEMBER ME BUT..................

I JUST CAN'T SEE THE PROOF THAT YOU REMEMBER ME . . . BUT IT'S OK . . . :)

I UNDERSTAND . . . I JUST WANT TO KNOW EVERYTHING YOU DO . . . WHERE YOU GO . . .

WHAT IS HAPPENING . . . WHAT YOU SEE . . . EASY TO SAY IS LIKE I WANNA ALWAYS

BE BY YOUR SIDE . . . :)





          YOU ASK ME TO TAKE CARE OF MY SELF . . . I 

FOLLOW EVERYTHING YOU SAID  . . . I TOLD YOU TO

YOU TO DRIVE SAFE BUT DID YOU LISTEN ? ? ?


NO YOU DID NOT . . . YOU HAVE BEEN NEARLY


EXCIDENTS  FOR 5 TIMES NOW . . . HOW WORRY I AM


DID YOU KNOW ? ? ? DID YOU FEEL ? ? ? DID YOU


UNDERSTAND ? ? ? I KNOW THIS IS OVER REACTION OF


MINE . . . BUT THIS IS WHO I AM . . . I CAN'T CHANGE


WHO I AM WHEN I AM CONCERN OF WHAT HAPPEN 


TO YOU . . . BUT NOW I MANAGE TO BE MORE


PATIENT WAITING FOR YOU . . . MANAGE TO BE


MORE UNDERSTANDING ABOUT YOUR SITUATION . . .








            I ALWAYS FIND MY TIME FOR YOU WHENEVER HAPPENS I ALWAYS UPDATE

YOU . . . I NEVER GET BORED OF YOU . . . I AM SO HAPPY TO SEE YOU COME HERE

JUST TO HAVE A LUNCH WITH ME . . . I AM A SIMPLE GIRL JUST WANNA BE THE

ONE THAT I LOVE . . . MONEY ? ? ? I DON'T EXPECT IT TO BE MORE THEN MY LOVE

FOR YOU . . . I HOPE YOU ACCEPT ME WHAT I AM TODAY . . . I HOPE YOU CAN

ACCEPT WHAT EVER IM NOT . . . THAT IS THE DARK SIDE OF ME . . . I JUST WANNA

YOU TO KNOW WHENEVER I FEEL DOWN , YOU ALWAYS HOLD MY HANDS AND

SAY DON'T GIVE UP . . . WHENEVER I FEEL SICK , YOU ALWAYS THERE TO TAKE

CARE OF ME UNTIL I AM PERFECTLY RECOVERED . . . WHENEVER I AM MAD WITH

ALL THE THINGS ABOUT THIS WORLD , YOU ALWAYS THERE TO OPEN MY EYES

AND KEPT REMEMBERING ME ABOUT THE COLOURS IN LIFE OTHER THEN BLACK

AND WHITE . . . I DID'NT MEAN TO BE ANGRY WITH YOU . . . I DID'NT MEAN

TO SCOLD YOU . . . I DID'NT MEAN TO LET YOU GO . . . I JUST CAN'T THINK AT THAT

TIME . . . I HOPE YOU UNDERSTANDS ME . . .






WHENEVER I'M MAD I JUST THINK THAT AM I REALLY 


GOING TO LET YOU GO ? ? ? OUT OF MY SIGHT ? ? ?


OUT OF MY MIND ? ? ? IS IT NOT ENOUGH WHAT YOU DID


FOR ME WHEN NO BODY DID NOTHING TO TAKE MY


HEART LIKE YOU DO . . . WHY AM I SO SELFISH WHEN 


I KNOW I JUST DENYING AND LYING TO MY SELF


ABOUT MY FEELINGS ? ? ? THIS RELATIONSHIP IS WHAT


I CALLED WORTH FIGHTING FOR . . . EVERY GIRL BEEN


WANTING THIS KIND OF RELATIONSHIP . . . I GOT IT


AND THEN I WANNA LET IT GO ? ? ? OK THAT JUST


STUPID KAN SAYANG . . . ^_^ I WILL NEVER GAVE UP


ON WHAT I HAVE TODAY AND I WILL TRY TO CONTROL


MY ANGER AND RAISE MY LOVE TOWARDS YOU . . .










          REMEMBER WHEN WE FIRST MEET ? ? ? HEHEHEHEHEHEHE . . . OUH HOW

I FEEL I AM SO LUCKY TODAY TO HAVE FINALLY MEET MY PRINCE . . . I DID'NT

REGRET BEING WILD GIRL THAT TIME . . . BECAUSE GOD HAVE PLAN THIS JOURNEY

SINCE WE WERE BORN . . . MY OPINION ABOUT YOU ? ? ?



MY OPINION ABOUT YOU FOR THE FIRST TIME WE MEET ----->

★ WOW YOU ARE SO TALL ( I BEEN WANTING A TALL PARTNER )


★ I JUST WANT TO KNOW YOU NOTHING MORE


★ THIS BOY IS QUITE HANDSOME


★ THE BOY THAT DID'NT TAKE ADVANTAGE ON ME WHEN I'M STONE


★ FRIENDLY


★ YOU HAVE A PERFECT BODY ( NICE CHEST = TAFF )


★ SO SWEET WHEN YOU TAKE CARE OF ME IN THE DARK PLACE 


★ SWEET WORDINGS












           THAT DAY I JUST HAVE A GOOD FEELING , GOOD


START AND GONNA HAVE A GOOD ADVENTURE . . .


YOU ARE A START OF SOMETHING BIG IN MY LIFE


I LOVE YOU SO MUCH (-.^)










WHEN YOU WANT TO SEND ME HOME YOU ALWAYS SAID 


♥OK BBY ! ANYTHING YOU JUST CALL ME


♥HUG A FEW TIMES


♥KISS A FEW TIMES


♥TAKE CARE


♥I'M SO WORRY ABOUT YOU


♥CRY A BIT


♥KISS HANDS


♥KISS OUR ENGAGEMENT RING


♥AND YOU ASK  " GIVE ME YOUR HONEST HUG"


HEHEHEHEHE 

SURVIVING MY DAY

DATE :16 DECEMBER 2011

DAY : FRIDAY

LOCATION : BRUNSFIELD

TIME : 12:48 AM

          SITTING AT THE CORNER IN MY RENTAL HOUSE . . .  JUST THINKING ABOUT US . . .

SO COLD . . . SO HURT . . . BEING IGNORED BY YOU . . . HMMMMM . . . I GUESS IM 

GOING TO BE USED TO IT . . . I DON'T MIND BE IGNORED . . . I DON'T MIND KEEP

MY FEELINGS TO MY SELF . . . I AM STILL STANDING . . . I STILL CAN PUT A SMILE

ON MY FACE . . . THANKS TO YOU I HAVE BEEN STRONGER AND STRONGER

EVERYDAY . . . STRONGER TO SURVIVE ANOTHER DAY WITHOUT YOU . . .

THANK YOU SO MUCH TO YOU BECAUSE YOU ARE GONNA MAKE ME MUCH MORE

STRONGER THAT I THINK ONE DAY I CAN MANAGE MY SELF NOT TO CRY

IN FRONT OF YOU WHEN MY HEART FALL TO PIECES . . . HOW DEEP THE WOUND IS

I STILL CAN HIDE MY FEELINGS . . .

           DON'T WORRY ABOUT ME . . . I AM GROWING STRONGER AND STRONGER 

BECAUSE OF YOU . . . BEING IGNORED BY YOU IS NEVER GONNA SPOIL MY MOOD

BEING HURT BY YOU IS NEVER GONNA MAKE ME CRY . . . BUT I JUST SCARED THAT

I WILL BE ENDED UP HAVING NO FEELING TOWARDS YOU ANYMORE . . .

BUT I GUESS YOU WOULD'NT CARE . . . YA . . . I KNOW . . . WHO AM I TO 

YOU RITE . . . IM NO BODY . . . IM JUST A SINGLE ME . . . A SINGLE I . . . A ONE

GIRLS THAT IS TRYING TO GROW STRONGER BECAUSE OF YOUR ATTITUDE . . .

BECAUSE OF THE WAY HOW YOU TREAT ME . . . AND I GUESS I AM GOING TO BE 

TOUGH UNTIL I CAN SURVIVE WITHOUT REMEMBER YOU . . .

       SOMETIMES I THINK I AM SELFISH . . . TRUST ME . . . I TRY AND TRY TO 

UNDERSTAND YOUR SITUATION . . . I KNOW YOU ARE SO SO SO BUSY WITH

YOUR LIFE . . . YOUR ASSIGNMENT . . . YOUR FRIENDS . . . YOUR FAMILY . . . BUT

I FAILED TO UNDERSTAND YOU BEFORE THIS . . . BUT NOW I JUST WANT YOU TO

KNOW JUST ONE LITTLE SENTENCE . . . " TIME CHANGE , PEOPLE CHANGE SO DO

HEART . IT CHANGE TOO " . . . I DON'T WANT MY HEART TO CHANGE TOWARDS YOU . . .

I DON'T WANT MY HEART STARTED TO LOSE IT REASON TO BEAT . . . I DON'T 

WANT MY LIFE TO BECOME MEANINGLESS . . . I DON'T WANT MY SOUL TO LOSE

HOPE AND GIVE UP WHAT WORTH FIGHTING FOR . . . 

            BUT.................................. ALL THIS THINGS DON'T

DO ANY CHANGES WILL IT NOW . . . YOU JUST DID'NT

CARE ANY MORE . . . YOU JUST DID'NT TRY TO 

UNDERSTAND ME ANY MORE . . . YOU JUST DID'NT 

BOTHER ABOUT ME ANY MORE . . . THAT'S ALL . . .

HEART ........ HE JUST NEED TIME TO REST . . . THAT'S ALL

HE STILL LOVES YOU . . . JUST SOMETIME HE IS TIRED

THINKING ABOUT YOU . . . PLEASE DEAR HEART . . .

DON'T LOSE HOPE NOW . . . HE NEED HIS SPACE THAT'S 

ALL . . .

          TEARS DON'T SEEMS TO STOP NOW . . . TEARS WHY DO YOU COME 

OUT ? ? ?

BECAUSE ONE DAY WHEN I'M STRONG ENOUGH TO TAKE THE PAINFUL FACT ABOUT

THIS WORLD MY TEARS WON'T COME OUT . . . NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO . . .

NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAID . . . NO MATTER HOW PAINFUL MY HEART'S WOUND . . .

I WILL NEVER CRY . . . I WILL STOP CRYING . . . I WILL FORGET HOW TO CRY . . .

I WILL FORGET HOW TO FEEL PAIN . . . AND THE MOST IMPORTANT ..............................

I WILL FORGET WHAT LOVE FEELS LIKE . . .

            SAYANG . . .  MY LOVE FOR YOU WILL NEVER CHANGE . . . BUT DID YOU

REALLY WANT FOR THE DAY TO COME WHEN I FORGET HOW TO REACT TOWARDS 

YOUR LOVE FOR ME ? ? ? CHANGE YOUR ATTITUDE OR I'LL CHANGE MY MIND . . .

FROM NOW . . . WHATEVER YOU DO . . . I WON'T BOTHER . . . WHATEVER I FEELS . . .

I WON'T SHOW . . . WHATEVER I DESIRE . . . I WON'T TELL YOU . . . YOU JUST

DO WHATEVER THAT'S MAKE YOU FEEL COMFORTABLE AND HAPPY . . .

THAT'S IT . . . I WANT NOTHING MORE THEN THE BEST FOR YOU . . .

           MY FEELINGS ?  ?  ? OUH YA . . . DON'T

BOTHER ABOUT IT . . . MY FEELINGS . . .

I WILL TAKE CARE IT MY SELF . . .

BECAUSE I KNOW HOW TO COMFORT 

MY HEART . . . I CAN PROTECT MY 

HEART FROM DAMAGE ALL THIS YEARS

AND HERE THE PROOF . . . I'M STILL

STANDING . . . I STILL CAN SMILE . . .

I STILL ALIVE . . . :) . . .

A LITTLE SOMETHING FOR YOUR KNOWLEDGE

DATE : 12 DECEMBER 2011
DAY : MONDAY
TIME : 11:37 P.M
LOCATION : BRUNSFIELD


         



                     WHEN THE MOON SEEMS SO BRIGHT MY HEART FEELS LIKE FALLING 


DEEPER IN YOUR LOVE . . . AM I CUT OUT TO BE WITH  A PERSON LIKE YOU ?


DID I DESERVE YOU BETTER THEN ANYONE ELSE ? ? ? SHOULD YOU ACCEPT 


A STRANGER GIRL LIKE ME ? ? ? IF YOU FEEL LIKE YOU WANNA LEAVE ME BUT


YOU AFRAID AND SYMPATHY FOR ME AFTER WHAT I'VE DONE FOR YOU THEN


JUST DON'T BE SYMPATHY TO ME . . . BECAUSE I WANT SOMEONE THAT LOVE ME


BECAUSE HE THINKS THAT I AM SO SO SPECIAL, MUCH MORE THEN HIS FRIENDS


AND  FAMILY . . . I KNOW THAT FAMILY FIRST . . . YOU SHOULD PAY MORE 


ATTENTION TO YOUR FAMILY NOT JUST A STRANGER OUTSIDER GIRL . . .


THAT'S WHY I ASK YOU JUST LEAVE ME IF THIS THE CASE . . .





       I'M NOT ASKING YOU TO LEAVE YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS BUT WHAT IS 


THE USED OF ME ? ? ? WHO AM I TO YOUR HEART ? ? ? WHAT IS MY FUNCTION


IN YOUR LIFE ? ? ? IF I'M ONLY THE SAME LEVEL LIKE YOUR FRIENDS . . . 


I AM NOTHING TO YOU . . . NOTHING SPECIAL ABOUT ME FOR ME . . .


WE BETTER BE JUST FRIENDS . . . WE HAVE BEEN FRIENDS BEFORE SO WE CAN BE


FRIENDS BACK AND STAY AS FRIENDS . . . 






                YOU SHOULD THINK THIS THRU YOUR HEART . . . MY FELLING IS NOT


A GAME ANYMORE FOR YOU TO PLAY . . . MY FEELING IS NOT FOR THE PERSON 


WHO THINKS THAT I AM THE SAME AS THE OTHER PEOPLE . . . MY HEART CAN'T 


TAKE ANOTHER FAKE FEELINGS . . . I'M JUST TIRED WITH ALL THIS . . .CAN I 


ASK YOU A FAVOUR ? ? ? CAN YOU LEAVE ME IF YOU STILL THINK THAT YOU


ARE NOT READY . . . IF YOU AFRAID TO HAVE A BIG RESPONSIBILITY . . . 


HANDLE MY SINS AND BE TRUTH WITH ME . . . HAVE MERCY ON ME BECAUSE


I'M JUST AN ORDINARY PERSON JUST LIKE YOU . . .





             I'M WEAK AND  EMOTIONAL AS FOR YOUR KNOWLEDGE . . . MY FEELINGS


IS VERY FRAGILE HOPING A GOOD ENDINGS IN EVERY RELATIONSHIP I'VE HAD 


IN MY LIFE . . . BEEN STICKING BACK MY HEART THAT IS THROWN AND BROKE TO


PIECES MANY TIME . . . JUST LIKE EVERY GIRLS IN THIS WORLD . . .


BUT NOW IT'S NOT LIKE I CAN'T STICK MY HEART WITH GLU ANYMORE . . .


IT'S JUST THAT I DON'T THINK I CAN SURVIVE THIS RELATIONSHIP IF IT BRAKE MY


HEART . . .





            I HOPE WHAT I CHOOSE IS A RIGHT DECISION . . . I HOPE THE BEST IN YOU . . .


I PRAY TO ALLAH THAT ALLAH WILL BLESS ME NO MATTER WHAT COMES IN MY


LIFE . . . AND IF YOU ARE GONNA LEAVE ME . . . I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW


THAT I HAVE BEEN CHANGING FOR THE BETTER IN FUTURE AND I HAVE BE STRONGER


THEN EVER . . . THANK YOU TO YOU WHAT YOU SEE IS YOUR CREATION . . .


LIKE YOUR ART WORK . . . JUST THE WAY YOU WANTED ME TO BE . . .


I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART FOR CHANGING ME TO BE A GOOD PERSON 


IN LIFE . . . 






          I WANNA BRING YOU IN MY FAMILY . . . TO FEEL THE JOY THAT YOU HAVE


NEVER FEEL . . . TO BE LOVED BY ME . . . YOU ARE THE MOST SPECIAL PERSON


FOR ME . . . MORE THEN MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY . . .








P/S : I NEED YOU TO GUIDE ME TO GO THROUGH THE HARDEST PART OF MY LIFE