Love without a blessing

ASSALAMUALAIKUM LET ME BEGIN MY BLOG




AS IF A GUN SHOT ON MY HEAD... WHAT A TRAGEDY... AM I TO BAD??? 


AM I VERY BAD??? AM I THE WORST??? AM I???


I AM HERE TO OPEN UP YOUR HEART DEAR MOTHER AND FATHER OF MY BELOVED


FIANCE FROM YOUR TYPICAL MALAY THINKING...


I AM NOT THAT EDUCATED LIKE YOU ALL DO...


I AM NOT REACH AS YOU ALL DO...


I HAVE A HAPPY AND LOVING FAMILY SINCE I WAS BORN...


MY MOM AND DAD USED TO STRUGGLE SO MUCH TO BECOME A SOMEONE...


NO BLESSING FROM THEIR PARENT AS MY FATHER WERE CHINESE...




BUT HE WORK VERY HARD TO EARN FOR A LIVING AND AT LAST BE WITH MY MOTHER


ALTHOUGH IT IS QUITE TOUGH... THEY MAKE THEIR WAY OF HAVING A FAMILY..


THEY OPEN MY KONGKONG'S AND MAMA ( MY FATHER'S MOM N DAD ) HEART BY


GIVING LIFE TO MY ELDER SISTER NUR ADILA... THE FIRST GRANDDAUGHTER...


THEN MY MAMA'S HEART OPEN AND CARE SO MUCH FOR MY UNBORN SISTER...




THEY DID NOT MEET SO EASY LIKE YOU DO AUNTY AND UNCLE...


THEY WERE GOOD PEOPLE AND WERE BLESS WITH 3 DAUGHTER... IM THE SECOND...


THEY GO THRU LOTS OF ROUGH ROAD IN THEIR LIFE BEFORE HAVING A NICE ONE...


I UNDERSTAND THAT YOU HAVENT HAD SO ROUGH TIME MEETING UP EACH


OTHER BEFORE MARRIED... YOUR FAMILY MEET BY MATCH MAKING AND 


LEAVE A HAPPY LIFE... YOU CANNOT TREAT A YOUNG GENERATION LIKE THAT...


PEOPLE CHANGE SO DO ENVIRONMENT...




I START HAVING A CULTURE SHOCK SINCE I BREAK UP WITH MY EX ON


OCTOBER 2012 BEFORE I MEET YOUR SON ON 14 OCTOBER 2012... I STARTED TO


CLUB BECAUSE OF STRESS DUE TO MY PREVIOUS RELATIONSHIP... IT IS


NOT MY PARENTS FAULT... IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MY FAMILY...


THEN I MEET YOUR SON (FUAD BIN AMIRUDDIN) ON THE 14TH WITH HIS 


FRIENDS AT MOS... HE CALL ME TO DANCE WITH HIM WHEN I WAS HIGH... 


HE WAS ON THINGS THAT NIGHT... WE WERE EXCHANGING NUMBER THAT DAY


AND NOW WE STILL STICK TOGETHER...




YOU SAID I AM NOT A GOOD MUSLIM... I UNDERSTAND... HOW CRUEL ARE YOU


TO BREAK YOUR SON'S HEART ??? I HAVE DONE NOTHING WRONG TO HIM...


I'VE CHANGE BECAUSE OF ALLAH WITH HIS HELP... IS THAT SO WRONG ???


STILL YOU CANT ACCEPT SOMEONE IS CHANGING TO BE A BETTER PERSON ??


YOU SHOULD BE PROUD THAT YOU SON HAD MADE SOMEONE'S HEART OPEN TO


THE RIGHT PATH... HE LOVE ME AS MUCH AS I DO TO HIM... I AM AM SO SINCERE


TO HIS HEART... BUT BECAUSE OF YOU MY HEART HAS BROKEN SO MANY TIMES...


ONE DAY YOU WILL REALIZE WHEN I AM NOT HERE ANY MORE YOU WILL


ASKING FORGIVENESS TO ALLAH FOR SEPARATING US... 




HOW SURE ARE YOU TO CHOOSE A MATCH FOR YOU SON ??? WILL HE BE HAPPY IN


THE FUTURE ??? YOU ARE GOING TO CHOOSE A GOOD MUSLIMAH ???


WITH THE HIJAB ALL THAT ??? WILL SHE ACCEPT YOUR SON WHEN SHE KNOWS 


EVERYTHING ABOUT YOUR SON'S PAST ??? SHE WILL DOUBT THAT YOUR FAMILY


ARE NOT A GOOD MUSLIM TO JUST LIKE YOU DOUBT MY FAMILY...




WE CHANGE SO MUCH TO BE A GOOD ISLAM... I NEVER LOOK BACK ON MY PAST


SO SHOULD YOU... WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO ACCEPT THE FAITH IF YOU


KEEP ON LOOKING BACK ??? LET BYGONE BE BYGONE... IF I CAN CHANGE THIS


WORLD BACK I'LL BE WHAT YOU WANT... BUT UNFORTUNATELY I CAN'T... 


STOP TALKING ABOUT OUR PAST... YOU ARE PARENT... AUNTY -----> YOU SAID


YOU KNOW YOUR SON WHEN YOU CALL ME THAT DAY... WHAT YOU KNOW ???


NOTHING??? IF YOU KNOW YOUR SON THEN YOUR FAMILY SHOULD'NT BE


CRACKING ISNT IT....




WHAT WILL YOU DO WHEN YOU ARE IN THE SAME SITUATION LIKE US??? JUST


GIVE UP??? ARE A QUITTER ???  YOU HAVE BEEN TRAVELLING TO SO MUCH


PLACES... THEN YOU SHOULD SEE THE WORLD HOW FAST THE WORLD HAD CHANGE..


HE DONT WANT TO LOOSE YOU NOR ME... BUT YOU THE ONE THAT FORCE HIM TO


CHOOSE... NOW I'LL DECIDE WHAT IS IT GONNA BE... I WILL NEVER LEAVE HIM 


UNLESS YOU "REDHA" WITH OUR RELATIONSHIP... BUT I HAVE TO GIVE UP


MY SOUL FOR THE SAKE OF YOUR FAMILY... I HAVE TO SACRIFICE A LOT FOR MY


YOUR IMMATURE THINKING... WOULD YOU BE HAPPY THEN??? EVEN ALLAH FORGIVE


EVERY SINS THAT WE DO WHY CANT YOU... HMMMM




PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOUR SON FOR ME BECAUSE I KNOW BEFORE THIS 


YOU NEVER DO... ALL YOU DID IS JUST BLAMING HIM TO SATISFIED YOUR


ANGER... SHAME ON YOU... SO PLEASE TAKE CARE OF HIM HE LOOK SAD WHEN 


IM GONNA LEFT...

HE SAID THE ONLY PERSON WHO CARE IN HIS FAMILY IS HIS LITTLE SISTER

TO MY BELOVED FIANCE


I CHERISH EVERY MOMENT WITH YOU... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND GOD KNOWS


I DO... LET ME BECOME YOUR SWEETEST MEMORY FOR YOU... NO ONE CAN


REPLACE YOU... THANK YOU FOR ALL THE JOY...




IN MEMORY

Akulah Air :')

Salam,

Aku seperti lelaki yang tiada perasaan..mungkin aku bnyak buat salah dengan mu..tp aku tau dalam setiap perhubungan ade Air dan Api..aku adalah Air yang berada dalam hubungan ini..setiap Api yang marak merah menyala, aku lah pemadamnye..

Tapi,
aku hanyalah air yang hanya mengikut haluan dan liku2 kehidupan..Api yang ego menyala dengan marak memandang Air ini kecil sahaja..Air yang sedikit boleh kering dan hilang dalam semarak Api..Air juga ada kuatnya, die boleh memadam Api dengan pertolongan Angin..Angin adelah sifat REDHA dan SEMANGAT kepada Air..
aku tau Api pernah ckp kepadaku yang Api akan marak dan tidak akan tunduk kepada Air..Api berlajar dengan pengalaman yang die pernah kecapi dahulu..Walaupun Api bersalah, namun Air jugak yang mengalah dan berserah demi mempertahankan hubungan antara Api dan Air.
Api mengherdik Air walaupun si Api tau die yang bersalah sebenarnya..Air menerima kritikan itu lantas menyiram dan memeluk Api untuk menenangkannya.. Walaupun Air ini sedikit dan die mungkin tidak dapat melawan Api, tetapi Air yang bersama sifat Angin InsyaAllah dapat memadamkan Api..

Sayang,
Dengan doa dan kejujuran tunangmu, aku yakin kamu akan lebih menyayangiku..Jujurlah kepadaku :')

Maafkan ku wahai TunangKu..
Salam yayang. :')

-Fuad-

Susah Diungkap, Maafkan Saya

Date : 2 JULAI 2012

Day : Monday

Assalamualaikum Nur Anis.

Mmg dalam perhubungan ini ade pergaduhan dan ade kebahagiaan. 

Yayang ssh nak terangkan mcm mane keadaan syg sekarang.. seriously syg terlalu stress dengan final work and at the same time i must follow up with my case..

Ya Allah, Besarnya Dugaan Mu,

Syg nak bg tau bby yang syg sekarang bukan suke2 xnak jumpe bby..syg bukan sengaje x nak jumpe bby..cume dalam keadaan syg sekarang mmg mcm huru hara..seriously dalam keadaan nie, syg memerlukan bby, but at the same time keadaan ini juga tidak membolehkan kite berjumpe..kalau nak jumpe, syg ade time2 yang betol untuk kite berjumpe.

Walaupun kite berjauhan, tp percayalah syg mmg sygkan bby.. time syg stress gile, syg open my gallery in my phone, and i scroll our picture..mmg nak menitis jugak air mate  nih tp syg tau bby pun mesti buat mcm tuh jugak kan.:')

Nur Anis, Fuad sygkan bby..

Walaupun hati nih bnyak terhiris, but bby pun kenal syg kan..syg nih mmg jenis redha jer..yang penting syg jujur dengan bby and syg percaye bby.:')

u ar my only ONE!

Maafkan Saya Nur Anis..

Ikhlas.

-TunangMu- <3