LOCATION : BRUNSFIELD SHAH ALAM
TIME : 11.37 P.M
I MAY BE NOT A PERFECT MUSLIMAH . . . I DO MAKE MISTAKE AND I DO MAKE THINGS
THAT MUSLIM ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO DO . . . BUT AS I WERE REALIZE TODAY LET ME
START THIS POST WITH A GREETING . . .
BISMILLAH IR- RAHMAN IR- RAHIM
( IN THE NAME OF GOD, MOST GRACIOUS, MOST COMPASSIONATE )
ASSALAMU ALAIKUM WA RAHMATULLAHI WA BARAKARTUH
( PEACE BE UPON YOU AND SO MAY THE MERCY OF ALLAH AND HIS BLESSINGS )
THANKS TO ALLAH FOR SENDING 1 PERSON ON THIS EARTH JUST FOR ME AND
TO OPEN MY EYES TO MAKE ME REALIZE IT ENOUGH OF MAKING SINS FOR MY
POOR SOUL . . . HE WHO CREATED JUST FOR ME THAT CANNOT BE EXCHANGE WITH
A PILE OF GOLD AND A DOZEN OF SOUL . . .
WHAT IS HIS EFFORT THAT MAKE ME CRY . . . NOT CRY BECAUSE OF SADNESS AND
FULL OF REGRETFULNESS . . . BUT FULL FEELING OF TOUCHES . . . ACTION THAT
TOUCHES MY BROKEN HEART . . . HIS EFFORT . . . HIS ACTION . . . HIS HAPPINESS . . .
HIS COURAGE . . . HIS LIFE . . . AS IF EVERYTHING HE DONE IS JUST FOR ME . . .
AS I AM HIS LIFE . . . MASYALLAH . . .
I SCOLD HIM . . . I BEAT HIM . . . I THREW A BAD WORD TO HIM . . . I DISOBEY HIM . . .
I MISUNDERSTAND HIM . . . AT THE END OF THE DAY HE SUFFER SO MUCH OF HIS
TIME . . . HIS ENERGY . . . HIS MONEY . . . FOR WHAT ? ? ?
FOR KEEPING ME OCCUPIED THAT WHAT . . . HE WORK TO RAISE ME AS HIS OWN
WIFE EVEN THOUGH I WE ARE STILL NOT A MARRIED COUPLE . . .
WHY ALLAH . . . WHY HE DID NOT FEEL SAD . . . HE DID NOT FEEL BORED . . .
HE DID NOT FEEL I AM HARD TO TAKE CARE OF WHEN EVERY ONE ELSE THINK
I AM THE WORST GIRL IN THIS WORLD ? ? ?
WHY HE IS NOT LIKE EVERY ONE ELSE ? ? ? TIRED OF ME . . .
AM I WHAT IS BEST FOR HIM ? ? ?
AM I HIS PREVIOUS SINS ? ? ?
WHAT IS HE FULL OF PATIENT ? ? ?
YA ALLAH MAKE ME A BETTER MUSLIM . . . A BETTER WIFE FOR HIM . . .
I HAVE COME TO MY REALIZE THAT NO MAN CAN GIVE WHAT HE HAD GIVEN TO ME . . .
I HAVE REALIZE THAT HE IS THE ONLY ONE THAT ALWAYS CHOOSE A BETTER
OPTION FOR ME . . . AND HE NEVER FEELS TIRED OF DOING IT SO . . .
HE NEVER FORGETS ME IN HIS PRAY . . . I FEEL SO APPRECIATED . . . I FEEL SO
TOUCHED . . . WHERE ARE YOU ? ? ? WHY ARE'NT YOU HERE ? ? ?
HE IS WORKING . . .
WHY ARE YOU WORKING ? ? ? YOU HAVE NO TIME FOR ME NOW YOU WANT TO WORK ? ? ?
I DO ALL THIS THINGS BECAUSE OF YOU . . . I WANT YOU AND OUR FUTURE CHILD
LIVE A HAPPY LIFE . . . MY RESPONSIBILITY AS A HUSBAND IS VERY HARD . . .
SAYANG I WERE TOUCHED BY YOUR WORDS . . . I CRY REGRETTING WHAT I'VE DONE
TO YOU THAT MAKE YOU SAD . . .
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH . . .
IF YOU ARE MY HUSBAND ONE DAY THEN I WILL GLADLY DIE IN THE NAME OF
ALLAH AND JIHAD TOWARDS OUR FAMILY ONE DAY . . . INSYAALLAH . . .
ANIS CHIA
