Love without a blessing

ASSALAMUALAIKUM LET ME BEGIN MY BLOG




AS IF A GUN SHOT ON MY HEAD... WHAT A TRAGEDY... AM I TO BAD??? 


AM I VERY BAD??? AM I THE WORST??? AM I???


I AM HERE TO OPEN UP YOUR HEART DEAR MOTHER AND FATHER OF MY BELOVED


FIANCE FROM YOUR TYPICAL MALAY THINKING...


I AM NOT THAT EDUCATED LIKE YOU ALL DO...


I AM NOT REACH AS YOU ALL DO...


I HAVE A HAPPY AND LOVING FAMILY SINCE I WAS BORN...


MY MOM AND DAD USED TO STRUGGLE SO MUCH TO BECOME A SOMEONE...


NO BLESSING FROM THEIR PARENT AS MY FATHER WERE CHINESE...




BUT HE WORK VERY HARD TO EARN FOR A LIVING AND AT LAST BE WITH MY MOTHER


ALTHOUGH IT IS QUITE TOUGH... THEY MAKE THEIR WAY OF HAVING A FAMILY..


THEY OPEN MY KONGKONG'S AND MAMA ( MY FATHER'S MOM N DAD ) HEART BY


GIVING LIFE TO MY ELDER SISTER NUR ADILA... THE FIRST GRANDDAUGHTER...


THEN MY MAMA'S HEART OPEN AND CARE SO MUCH FOR MY UNBORN SISTER...




THEY DID NOT MEET SO EASY LIKE YOU DO AUNTY AND UNCLE...


THEY WERE GOOD PEOPLE AND WERE BLESS WITH 3 DAUGHTER... IM THE SECOND...


THEY GO THRU LOTS OF ROUGH ROAD IN THEIR LIFE BEFORE HAVING A NICE ONE...


I UNDERSTAND THAT YOU HAVENT HAD SO ROUGH TIME MEETING UP EACH


OTHER BEFORE MARRIED... YOUR FAMILY MEET BY MATCH MAKING AND 


LEAVE A HAPPY LIFE... YOU CANNOT TREAT A YOUNG GENERATION LIKE THAT...


PEOPLE CHANGE SO DO ENVIRONMENT...




I START HAVING A CULTURE SHOCK SINCE I BREAK UP WITH MY EX ON


OCTOBER 2012 BEFORE I MEET YOUR SON ON 14 OCTOBER 2012... I STARTED TO


CLUB BECAUSE OF STRESS DUE TO MY PREVIOUS RELATIONSHIP... IT IS


NOT MY PARENTS FAULT... IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MY FAMILY...


THEN I MEET YOUR SON (FUAD BIN AMIRUDDIN) ON THE 14TH WITH HIS 


FRIENDS AT MOS... HE CALL ME TO DANCE WITH HIM WHEN I WAS HIGH... 


HE WAS ON THINGS THAT NIGHT... WE WERE EXCHANGING NUMBER THAT DAY


AND NOW WE STILL STICK TOGETHER...




YOU SAID I AM NOT A GOOD MUSLIM... I UNDERSTAND... HOW CRUEL ARE YOU


TO BREAK YOUR SON'S HEART ??? I HAVE DONE NOTHING WRONG TO HIM...


I'VE CHANGE BECAUSE OF ALLAH WITH HIS HELP... IS THAT SO WRONG ???


STILL YOU CANT ACCEPT SOMEONE IS CHANGING TO BE A BETTER PERSON ??


YOU SHOULD BE PROUD THAT YOU SON HAD MADE SOMEONE'S HEART OPEN TO


THE RIGHT PATH... HE LOVE ME AS MUCH AS I DO TO HIM... I AM AM SO SINCERE


TO HIS HEART... BUT BECAUSE OF YOU MY HEART HAS BROKEN SO MANY TIMES...


ONE DAY YOU WILL REALIZE WHEN I AM NOT HERE ANY MORE YOU WILL


ASKING FORGIVENESS TO ALLAH FOR SEPARATING US... 




HOW SURE ARE YOU TO CHOOSE A MATCH FOR YOU SON ??? WILL HE BE HAPPY IN


THE FUTURE ??? YOU ARE GOING TO CHOOSE A GOOD MUSLIMAH ???


WITH THE HIJAB ALL THAT ??? WILL SHE ACCEPT YOUR SON WHEN SHE KNOWS 


EVERYTHING ABOUT YOUR SON'S PAST ??? SHE WILL DOUBT THAT YOUR FAMILY


ARE NOT A GOOD MUSLIM TO JUST LIKE YOU DOUBT MY FAMILY...




WE CHANGE SO MUCH TO BE A GOOD ISLAM... I NEVER LOOK BACK ON MY PAST


SO SHOULD YOU... WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO ACCEPT THE FAITH IF YOU


KEEP ON LOOKING BACK ??? LET BYGONE BE BYGONE... IF I CAN CHANGE THIS


WORLD BACK I'LL BE WHAT YOU WANT... BUT UNFORTUNATELY I CAN'T... 


STOP TALKING ABOUT OUR PAST... YOU ARE PARENT... AUNTY -----> YOU SAID


YOU KNOW YOUR SON WHEN YOU CALL ME THAT DAY... WHAT YOU KNOW ???


NOTHING??? IF YOU KNOW YOUR SON THEN YOUR FAMILY SHOULD'NT BE


CRACKING ISNT IT....




WHAT WILL YOU DO WHEN YOU ARE IN THE SAME SITUATION LIKE US??? JUST


GIVE UP??? ARE A QUITTER ???  YOU HAVE BEEN TRAVELLING TO SO MUCH


PLACES... THEN YOU SHOULD SEE THE WORLD HOW FAST THE WORLD HAD CHANGE..


HE DONT WANT TO LOOSE YOU NOR ME... BUT YOU THE ONE THAT FORCE HIM TO


CHOOSE... NOW I'LL DECIDE WHAT IS IT GONNA BE... I WILL NEVER LEAVE HIM 


UNLESS YOU "REDHA" WITH OUR RELATIONSHIP... BUT I HAVE TO GIVE UP


MY SOUL FOR THE SAKE OF YOUR FAMILY... I HAVE TO SACRIFICE A LOT FOR MY


YOUR IMMATURE THINKING... WOULD YOU BE HAPPY THEN??? EVEN ALLAH FORGIVE


EVERY SINS THAT WE DO WHY CANT YOU... HMMMM




PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOUR SON FOR ME BECAUSE I KNOW BEFORE THIS 


YOU NEVER DO... ALL YOU DID IS JUST BLAMING HIM TO SATISFIED YOUR


ANGER... SHAME ON YOU... SO PLEASE TAKE CARE OF HIM HE LOOK SAD WHEN 


IM GONNA LEFT...

HE SAID THE ONLY PERSON WHO CARE IN HIS FAMILY IS HIS LITTLE SISTER

TO MY BELOVED FIANCE


I CHERISH EVERY MOMENT WITH YOU... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND GOD KNOWS


I DO... LET ME BECOME YOUR SWEETEST MEMORY FOR YOU... NO ONE CAN


REPLACE YOU... THANK YOU FOR ALL THE JOY...




IN MEMORY

Akulah Air :')

Salam,

Aku seperti lelaki yang tiada perasaan..mungkin aku bnyak buat salah dengan mu..tp aku tau dalam setiap perhubungan ade Air dan Api..aku adalah Air yang berada dalam hubungan ini..setiap Api yang marak merah menyala, aku lah pemadamnye..

Tapi,
aku hanyalah air yang hanya mengikut haluan dan liku2 kehidupan..Api yang ego menyala dengan marak memandang Air ini kecil sahaja..Air yang sedikit boleh kering dan hilang dalam semarak Api..Air juga ada kuatnya, die boleh memadam Api dengan pertolongan Angin..Angin adelah sifat REDHA dan SEMANGAT kepada Air..
aku tau Api pernah ckp kepadaku yang Api akan marak dan tidak akan tunduk kepada Air..Api berlajar dengan pengalaman yang die pernah kecapi dahulu..Walaupun Api bersalah, namun Air jugak yang mengalah dan berserah demi mempertahankan hubungan antara Api dan Air.
Api mengherdik Air walaupun si Api tau die yang bersalah sebenarnya..Air menerima kritikan itu lantas menyiram dan memeluk Api untuk menenangkannya.. Walaupun Air ini sedikit dan die mungkin tidak dapat melawan Api, tetapi Air yang bersama sifat Angin InsyaAllah dapat memadamkan Api..

Sayang,
Dengan doa dan kejujuran tunangmu, aku yakin kamu akan lebih menyayangiku..Jujurlah kepadaku :')

Maafkan ku wahai TunangKu..
Salam yayang. :')

-Fuad-

Susah Diungkap, Maafkan Saya

Date : 2 JULAI 2012

Day : Monday

Assalamualaikum Nur Anis.

Mmg dalam perhubungan ini ade pergaduhan dan ade kebahagiaan. 

Yayang ssh nak terangkan mcm mane keadaan syg sekarang.. seriously syg terlalu stress dengan final work and at the same time i must follow up with my case..

Ya Allah, Besarnya Dugaan Mu,

Syg nak bg tau bby yang syg sekarang bukan suke2 xnak jumpe bby..syg bukan sengaje x nak jumpe bby..cume dalam keadaan syg sekarang mmg mcm huru hara..seriously dalam keadaan nie, syg memerlukan bby, but at the same time keadaan ini juga tidak membolehkan kite berjumpe..kalau nak jumpe, syg ade time2 yang betol untuk kite berjumpe.

Walaupun kite berjauhan, tp percayalah syg mmg sygkan bby.. time syg stress gile, syg open my gallery in my phone, and i scroll our picture..mmg nak menitis jugak air mate  nih tp syg tau bby pun mesti buat mcm tuh jugak kan.:')

Nur Anis, Fuad sygkan bby..

Walaupun hati nih bnyak terhiris, but bby pun kenal syg kan..syg nih mmg jenis redha jer..yang penting syg jujur dengan bby and syg percaye bby.:')

u ar my only ONE!

Maafkan Saya Nur Anis..

Ikhlas.

-TunangMu- <3

DEPRESSION

DATE : 15 JUN 2012
DAY : FRIDAY



I SHOULD NOT SAY TO YOU THAT WORD IM THE ONE WHO IS STUPID NOT YOU . . .

IM HAVING A CONFUSED AND A VERY TIRING DAY . . . I DID NOT WISH TO SAY

ANYTHING THEN JUST EASE MY SELF . . . I HAVE BEEN TIRED DEALING WITH THE

STUPID PEOPLE IN THE HOSPITAL AND WHAT I NEED IS A TIME OF MY SELF AND

A UNDERSTANDING PARTNER . . . WHEN I SAID WAIT IT MEANS YOU HAVE TO WAIT . . .

WHY DID YOU ALWAYS IMPATIENT ? ? ? AS IF YOU LIKE ME YELLING AT YOU . . .

THEN WHY DID YOU ASK ME FOR SYMPATHY BECAUSE I YELLED AT YOU ? ? ?

IT'S YOUR FAULT THEN YOU WANT AN APOLOGY ? ? ? NOW I AM SO TIRED

MY BODY IS FATIGUE . . . I DON'T NEED ANYTHING JUST SOMEONE TO LISTEN TO

WHAT I SAID . . . EVENTUALLY YOU DONT HAVE THE CRITERIA TO LISTEN TO ME . . .






I'VE BEEN EXPRESS MY FEELING TOWARDS TWITTER BECAUSE YOU ALWAYS OPEN

YOUR TWITTER . . . IF YOU NOTICE I WROTE " TAK NAK TAG KITA PON " BUT

I HAVE A POSITIVE THINKING . . . I THINK YOU DID NOT OPEN YOUR TWITTER

BUT YOU DID OPEN YOUR TWITTER BUT YOU TAG YOUR FRIEND . . .

AM I LESS IMPORTANT ? ? ? TELL ME AM I ? ? ? THAT IS WHY I CALLED YOU STUPID . . .

CANT EVEN THINK ABOUT IT  . . . ALTHOUGH IT WAS SMALL MATTER BUT

I HAVE A SENSATIVE HEART . . . THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU DID MAKES ME ANGRY

BUT I KEPT GIVING YOU CHANCES TO CHANGE . . .


EVEN WHEN I KNOW YOU WILL NEVER CHANGE . . .




USELESS, LONELY, FATIGUE, FED UP, ANGRY, AND TIRED . . .


HOPE YOU WILL MAKE YOUR DECISION ABOUT HAVING ME AS YOUR PARTNER . . .

STOP TRYING TO SAVE THIS RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR PATIENT WHEN I YELLED

AT YOU JUST BECAUSE YOUR FRIEND RELATIONSHIP IS ROTTING . . . BUT

TRY TO SAVE THIS RELATIONSHIP BY UNDERSTANDING AND YOUR HEART . . .

THINK ABOUT IT . . .

X SIAPA YANG TAHU

DATE : 28 MEI 2012
DAY : MONDAY





PEDIH DI HATI TAK SIAPA YANG TAHU... AQ CUBA SEDAYA UPAYA UNTUK MENUTUP SEGALA KESAKITAN YANG BERLAKU...

SOMETIMES PEOPLE JUST TO STUPID TO UNDERSTAND YOUR HEART... KEEP IT SIMPLE JANGAN BAGI ORANG LAIN PEGANG HATI KITA KALAU KITA MEMANG BELUM NAK KAHWIN DENGAN DIA... SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST WORTHLESS...

MAAF?

DOES IT ENOUGH?

SAMA KE DENGAN KESAKITAN YANG KITA RASA ? HUH !

HOPE ALLAH TINGKAT KAN LAH KESABARAN AKU DALAM MENEMPUH SEGALA DUGAAN... AQ X DA HAK NAK BERKATA APA2... SEMUA KITA KENA BUAT SENDIRI.. JAGA HATI SENDIRI SEBAB TAK NAK DI SAKITI DENGAN TERUK... AKU AKAN KURANG KAN KASIH SAYANG AKU PADA DIA SEBAB HATI AKU SAKIT SANGAT BILA DIA BUSY...


HMMM.....

INI KAH BALASAN ATAS APA YANG TELAH AKU BUAT PADA MU YA ALLAH AKU REDHA....
SESUNGGUH NYA HATI KU DAN CINTA KU INI BUKAN UNTUK DI PERMAIN KAN... AKU HANYA NSAN BIASA BANYAK BUAT SALAH...
TENANG KAN LAH HATI HANBA MU YA ALLAH....


AKU HARUS KUAT UNTUK DI AKU SENDIRI SEBAB AKU TAHU HANYA AKU YANG MAMPU JAGA DIRI KU HATI KU DAN CINTA KU....


KALAU DI BUKAN UNTUK KU KAU AMBIL LAH DIA... TEMUKAN DENGAN JODOH NYA ... AKU MENDOA UNTUK YANG TERBAIK BUAT DIRI KU DAN DIRI NYA...



SINCERELY,
ANIS CHIA

HEAVEN TOUCHED

DATE : 13 MEI 2012
DAY : SUNDAY
TIME : 7 SHARP


I HAVE SACRIFICE SO MUCH FOR YOU... I EVEN LOVE YOU WHEN NO ONE AROUND

YOU... WHEN NO HEART CARES YOU... WHEN NO WEALTH AROUND YOU...

I AM NOT WEALTHY AS THE RICH MAN APPEARS TO BE... IM JUST AN AVERAGE ME...

I DID NOT HOPE ANYTHING IN RETURN BUT YOUR TIME...


ALTHOUGH I AM NOT BY YOUR SIDE WHEN YOU WERE BORN BUT I THINK

I KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU... MAY BE NOT YOUR PAST BUT YOUR

PRESENT WITH ME... FORGIVE ME WHEN I'M SUDDENLY MOODY WHEN I AM

STILL TRAUMATIZED BY YOUR MOTHER AND FATHER SPEAKS... I DID NOT

WISH TO LET YOU GO UNLESS YOU LET ME GO...



HAVING YOU IN MY LIFE IS LIKE A HEAVEN ON EARTH... LIKE A RAINBOW AFTER

A STORMY RAIN... LIKE A LOVE WITH NO CONFLICT... AND LIKE A WIFE

LOVING HER HUSBAND ...


SO CRUEL WHEN SOMEONE IS TRYING TO SEPARATE A PURE LOVE... SO CRUEL

WHEN SOMEONE TRYING TO STOP US FROM LOVING EACH OTHER... WHAT

HAVE I DONE... I KNOW I AM NOT A GOOD MUSLIM... BUT CAN I CHANGE FROM

BAD TO GOOD ? ? ?

IS THAT ACCEPTABLE ???

WHAT IS MY PAST IS BEYOND OUR CONTROL . . .

WHAT IS MY PAST WAS NOT EVEN YOUR CONCERN . . .

WHY CAN'T YOU BE MATURED AND THINK LET BYGONE BE BYGONE ? ? ?

I LOVE YOUR SON MAY BE MORE THEN YOU DO . . .

I WILL TAKE WHAT EVER IT TAKES TO STAND UP FOR WHAT IS RIGHT FOR ME . . .



I AM THE KEY TO YOUR SON HAPPINESS . . .

I AM THE KEY TO YOUR SON CARRIER . . .

I AM THE KEY TO YOUR SON FUTURE . . .

BUT . . .

I AM ALSO THE KEY TO YOUR SON HEART BROKEN . . .

I AM ALSO THE KEY TO YOUR SON BAD MEMORIES . . .

AND I AM ALSO THE KEY TO YOUR SON SADNESS . . .



SAYANG . . .

DO YOU REMEMBER WHEN THE TIME YOU CALL ME TO DANCE WITH YOU ? ? ?

I NEVER HAD REALIZE THAT YOU ARE SO IMPORTANT TO ME UNTIL THIS DAY

HAVE COME . . .

THAT DAY I JUST KNEW YOU WERE LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE . . .

BUT YOU HAVE A BIG COURAGE TO CHANGE MY THOUGHT OF YOU . . .

THAT IS WHY YOU WERE DIFFERENT THEN . . .

THERE NEVER BE ANOTHER LOVE FOR SURE . . .

STONE HEAVY LIKE THE LOVE YOU'VE SHOWED. . .

OUR LOVE IS LIKE A SOLID ROCK . . .

FOREVER WE WILL STAY . . .

UNTOUCHED AND UNBREAKABLE . . .

HARD TO BUILD AND LIKE A HEAVEN TOUCHED ...


HAPPY 6 MONTH ENGAGEMENT ANNIVERSARY SYG ...

HOPE YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL FUTURE . . .

THINGS I DO TO EASE MY HEART !

DATE : 25 APRIL 2012
TIME : : 10:35 P.M
DAY : WEDNESDAY
LOCATION : BRUNSFIELD




PEOPLE AROUND ALWAYS KEEP ME ACCOMPANY . . . BUT YET THEY STILL HAVE NOT


MAKES MY HEART TO THE DEEPEST EASE . . .


WHEN YOU WERE HERE I GO OUT WITH MY FRIENDS SEEM TO BE A VERY


ENJOYABLE THINGS TO DO . . . 


BUT WHEN YOU WERE NOT HERE I O OUT WITH MY FRIENDS SEEM TO BE NOTHING


BUT EMPTY . . .


HAVE YOU PUT A CHARM ON ME ? ? ? 


TODAY YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE HERE IN MALAYSIA ALREADY BUT YET


ALLAH WANTED TO TEST MY PATIENT TOWARDS HIS TEST . . .


HE MAKE YOUR FLIGHT DELAY BY 7 HOURS . . . 


I ACCEPT IT AS THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO . . . ALLAH IS ALMIGHTY . . .


ALL THE UNIVERSE BOW DOWN BEFORE HIM . . .



I AM JUST AN AVERAGE GIRL THAT WAITING HER LOVE ONES TO COME BACK


MALAYSIA TO BE HUG , TO BE KISS , TO BE LOVE AND TO BE HOLD . . .


WHAT I CAN DO IS JUST PRAY PRAY PRAY TO ALLAH SO YOU HAVE


A SAVE JOURNEY BACK HERE . . .



I MAY BE STUPID TO WHO EVER THAT READ THIS . . . THAT IS BECAUSE I WROTE


THIS BLOG WITHOUT AN EGO TOWARDS MY SELF . . .  


WHEN YOU SAY THAT  " I KNOW YOU MISS ME RITE " I REPLIED   " NO"


THAT IS BECAUSE THE WORDS IS FULL WITH EGO AND PRIDE . . .


IM SORRY I LET MY EGO GO TO YOU . . .


SINCE YOU WERE NOT HERE I HAVE BECOME A GOOD GIRL ^_^ . . .


I NEVER GO OUT LATE AT NIGHT . . .


I DID MY ASSIGNMENT WELL . . .


I OFTEN CLEAN MY BED . . .


I SLEEP EARLY . . .


I  CALL MY MUM AND MY DAD OFTEN . . .


I PRAY HARD . . .


OUH AND I EVEN WEAR MY HIJAB TO CLASS . . .


HEEE ^_^ . . .



BUT . . .


 WHEN YOU WERE NOT HERE


I LOST MY APPETITE


I HAVE NOT  COOK IN MY HOUSE


I OFTEN ONLINE IN CLASS BECAUSE I WANT TO BE THERE WHEN YOU ONLINE


I HAVE NOT BEEN EATING RICE OFTEN


I HARDLY BECOME EASY TO GET SICK







I MISS YOU . . . YOU KNOW . . .


JUST NOW I BECOME LIKE CRAZY PERSON . . .


I TALK TO A VIDEO . . .


THE VIDEO YOU MAKE FOR ME . . . I TRANSFER IT TO MY PHONE SO IT BECOME


EASY TO WATCH WHEN EVER I FEEL ALONE . . .

THIS VIDEO MY FAVOURITE PART IS WHEN 4:55 TILL THE END . . . AND I ANSWER


IT . . . I SAID "I LOVE YOU TO SO MOUCH ~     SAYANGGG~ ( MY MELODY )


HMMM . . . CRAZY ME . . . THANKS FOR THE VIDEO . . . I LOVE IT . . .




I NEVER REALIZE WHAT I HAVE UNTIL ITS GONE . . . I CAN FINISH A LOT OF MONEY


JUST TO CALL YOU . . . JUST TO HEAR YOUR VOICE . . .




CAN YOU FEEL WHAT I FEEL ? CAN YOU TELL ME WHAT I FEEL ? I PRAY TO ALLAH


ONCE JUST TO MAKE YOU APPEAR IN MY DREAMS . . . BUT YOU DID NOT


BECAUSE I CAN NOT HARDLY REMEMBERED . . .




THEN I LOOK AT THE VIDEO THAT YOU MAKE ON OUR ENGAGEMENT ANNIVERSARY


SUDDENLY I SMILE . . . 


MEMORIES DOES NOT FADE . . .


I REMEMBERED THAT YOU WERE DRAWING IT WHEN WE WERE SKYPING . . .


I ASK YOU " WHAT ARE YOU WRITING DOWN THERE ? "


THEN YOU SAID " IT WAS MY ASSIGNMENT "


YOU LIED TO SURPRISE ME . . . 


I AM TRULY GRATEFUL  TO HAVE YOU AS MY FIANCÉ AND MY FUTURE WIFE . . .




I EVEN ACT LIKE A PERVERT HEHEHEHE !


I ALWAYS GO TO YOUR FACEBOOK PROFILE JUST TO SEE YOUR LATEST PICTURE


AND DOWNLOAD IT WITHOUT YOUR PERMISSION . . . 


SORRY I CAN'T HELP IT . . .




THIS IS THE COLLECTION OF YOUR PICTURE THAT I TOOK 

WAITING FOR YOU WITH LOVE . . .

5 DAYS WITHOUT HIM

DATE : 20 APRIL 2012
DAY : FRIDAY
TIME : 7.26
LOCATION : BRUNSFIELD




ASSALAMUALAIKUM

DAH MASUK HARI YANG KELIMA DAH DIA PERGI KE MEKAH MENGERJAKAN

UMRAH . SO SAYA AS USUAL MENUNGGU AND MENGIRA HARI KEPULANGAN DIA .

TAK TAHU NAK BAGI SURPRISE APE NANTI TIME DIA BALIK . HMMM ANY

SUGGESTION GUYS NAK BAGI APA ? SEBAB GUYS LAH YANG TAHU BARANG GUYS

KAN . HMMM


AQ TENGAH MAKAN BUBUR KOSONG DENGAN AYAM GORENG ( SAVE BUDJET )

HAHAHA . SEDIH TUNANG AQ KALAU DENGAR SEBAB DIA BAGI AQ DUIT

NAFKAH :)  HEEE.. OUH AND SOME COCA COLA . AHAHHAHA AIR DIA

GRAND PULAK KIHKIHKIH .



5 HARI LAGI.... 5 HARI LAGI .... SABAAAAAAAAAA ......

LAMANYA ....... :(


HMMM TAK PE LAH BIAR AQ TERLEBIH TIDUR 10 HARI NI ......

TIME DIA TAK DE NIE AQ TIDUR AWAL SANGAT2 .....

MALAM NIE MEMBER KELAS AJAK G KAROKE... NAK NYANYI LAGU

CINTA-MENCINTAI DARI NURUL & AJAI LAH.... HUHUHU


DULU AQ TAK SUKA KAROKR SEBAB MALU, SUARA TAK SEDAP AND TAK DE

FEEL ....

TAPI SEJAK2 NIE AQ TAHU DYE NAK G UMRAH DAN AQ TAHU NANTI AQ

KESEORANGAN AQ G LA KAROKE TETIBE MACAM BEST LAK.... HEEEE

DULU TUNANG AQ SUKA G KAROKE ....

TIME KITORANG BARU2 KENAL DULU 1ST TIME G KAROKE DEKAT

ALAMANDA LAH DENGAN MEMBER DYE (AIZAT) , DYE , MEMBER AQ AND AKU .

TIME TU AQ BAD MOOD SEBAB AQ TAK SUKA G KAROKE LAGI LA KAN...



CIAN DYE TAK LEH KAROKE SEBAB AQ .... DYE PUJUK AQ PUNYA PASAL ....

HEEEE AQ INGAT LAGI TIME AQ MAJUK AQ NAK G TANDAS

PASTU AQ TERPERGI TANDAS KAT BOWLING TU ....

DIA CALL AQ PASTU CAKAP DALAM NADA EMERGENCY

" BBY, BBY KAT MANA DATANG SINI JAP URGENT "


AQ PON BERGEGAS LAH KELUAR NASIB BAIK AQ DAH HABIS URUSAN HAHAHAHA

AQ PON KELUAR RUPANYA DIA TUNGGU KAT TANDAS BAWAH ESCALATOR ....

PASTU AQ CAKAP APA HAL ? APA HAL ?

SEKALI DYE CAKAP " NOTHING BUT I'M SO WORRY ABOUT YOU "   -_-''




TU JE URGENT DYE .... HAIYAAA ... HAHAHAHA.... BILA FIKIR KAN BALIK

NAK MARAH PON MACAM TAK GUNA KETAWE JE LAH TIME TU ....

HAHAHA ..... HAISH.... TERINGAT LAK ZAMAN DULU2 ....

OUH TIME TU DYE NAK BELI BAJU UNTUK HALOWEEN PARTY ....

^_^ ....

SAYANG NANTI BALIK DARI UMRAH KITA G KAROKE EA ........

HEEEEEEEEEE..............

FUAD I LOVE YOU

I CAN'T CONTROL MY SELF FROM STOP CRYING . . .

I TRY TO BE STRONG FOR 3 DAYS . . .

BUT FINALLY IM GETTING WEAKER IN A MINUTE . . .

YOU .............

I WOULD GO A THOUSAND MILE JUST TO SEE YOU IN REAL LIFE . . .

I WOULD SPEND A THOUSAND MONEY JUST TO TALK TO YOU . . .

I WOULD SACRIFICE MY LIFE JUST TO KEEP YOU ALIVE . . .

BECAUSE I KNOW YOU WILL DO THE SAME FOR ME . . .


WHEN YOU ARE HERE I JUST IGNORE YOU . . .

WHEN YOU ARE HERE I JUST SCOLD YOU WITHOUT CARE ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS . . .

WHEN YOU WERE HERE YOU ALWAYS BECOME MY VICTIM TO RELEASE MY

ANGER . . .




BUT NOW ......................


EVERYTHING SEEMS SO DARK . . .

WITH NO LIGHT FROM YOUR LOVE . . .

SEEING YOU JUST ONLINE MAKES MY HEART STOP AS IF I WILL NEVER SEE THAT

AGAIN . . .

NOW YOU'RE NOT HERE I CHERISH EVERY MINUTE I HAVE WITH YOU . . .

A MINUTE SEEMS ENOUGH TO KEEP ME WARM . . .

WILL YOU LEAVE ME AGAIN ?




NOW I KNOW WHAT THE MEANING OF APPRECIATE SOMEONE THAT LOVE YOU

BEFORE THEY GONE . . .

DAY WITHOUT HIM

DATE : 18 APRIL 2012
DAY : WEDNESAY
TIME : 8.03 P.M
LOCATION : BRUNSFIELD SHAH ALAM



ASSALAMUALAIKUM ^^


HARI NI NAK BUAT BLOG DALAM BAHASA MELAYU PULAK LAH . SELALU YANG

GUNA BLOG SAYA DALAM BAHASA MELAYU NI TUNANG SAYA JE FUAD BIN AMIRUDDIN

HUH !

SEBUT JE NAMA DYE DAH BERLINANGAN AIR MATA . FUHHHH ! SABAR SABAR .

OK THE BEST MOMENT TIME 14hb APRIL 2012 SABTU TIME DYE NAK HANTAR PERGI

MELAKA BERCUTI DENGAN FAMILY SAYA . TIME TU MERAJUK DENGAN DIA SEBAB

NAK BAWAK KERETA HUHU. KESIAN DIA KENA LAYAN KERENAH SAYA .

PASTU TIME DYE NAK MERISIK SAYA DEKAT MELAKA TU, PUNYA LAH MENGELABAH

HADOI TU LAH KALAU EGO SANGAT TU MAKAN NYA . HAHAHA . TAPI SAYA

MEMANG SALUTE DIA SEBAB DIA BERANI TAMPIL DEPAN PARENT SAYA UNTUK

ASK FOR MY HAND . SO ROMANTIK KAN . MY MUM TIME TU TERUS BAGI

NASIHAT DULU BUKAN NYA NAK BAGI JAWAPAN . KESIAN ORANG TU INGAT

DIA TAK DI TERIMA KUT . HEHEHE . TAPI NASIB BAIK MY PARENT SAY YES




DIA LAH HARTA SAYA DUNIA AKHIRAT . HMMM THE SADNESS PART IS TIME

16hb APRIL TU .


THE DAY DIA PERGI MAKKAH MENGERJAKAN UMRAH ~


DAH LAH TAK DAPAT TENGOK DIA PERGI AIRPORT . PASTU SAYA LAK DALAM KELAS

HUH MEMANG DUGAAN BETUL LAH . YA ALLAH TOLONG LAH KURANG KAN DUGAAN

KU IN YA ALLAH .


OK YANG FIRST FIRST TU SAYA OK LAGI . ''AQ BOLEH HIDUP KALAU DIA JAUH''

TIME FIRST DAY JE LAH MASUK 2nd DAY SAYA DAH MULA CARI AKTIVITI UNTUK

MELUPAKAN DIA SEKEJAP . HAH NI DAH 3rd DAY DAH DYE X DE . AIYAAAAAA .

APA LAGI SAYA NAK BUAT NIE . FIKIR PUNYA FIKIR . OK LAH MALAM NI RASA

MACAM NAK PERGI TENGOK WAYANG DENGAN KAWAN-KAWAN .


ADA LAGI 7 HARI LAGI HARI2 YANG PERLU SAYA TEMPUH . ADUH . HMMM

ADUH DUGAAN BETUL LAH BILA BERJAUHAN DENGAN YANG TERSAYANG NI .

YA ALLAH AKU NAK CEPAT2 KAWIN ( KALAU MAK AKU DENGAR MESTI DIA CAKAP

KO DAH KENAPA GATAL SANGAT DAH ) KIHKIHKIH . BUKAN APA HIDUP NI

MACAM DAH TAK LENGKAP PULAK . ADUH .


LAGI2 BILA KAWAN2 SATU RUMAH NI DOK BERGAYUT LELAMA NGAN PASANGAN

MASING2 . RUMAH SEWA SAYA NIE RUMAH DIGI HAHAHA . SEMUA ORANG PAKAI

DIGI SEBAB BOLEH BERGAYUT 24 HOURS . SAYA NIE TIME DIA ADE KAT SINI MEMANG

LAH BERGAYUT JE KERJA NYA . TAPI DYE DAH TAKDE KAT SINI DYE PERGI

UMRAH TINGGAL LAH SAYA KAT SINI . HMM


NANTI DYE DAH BALIK TAK GAYUT DENGAN SAYA SIAP LAH DYE HAHAHA .

SAYANG BBY RINDU SANGAT2 KAT SAYANG .

SAYA NGAN TUNANG SYE NIE MANJA2 SIKIT HUHU !

OK LAH NAK P TENGOK WAYANG .


RESTU LAH HUBUNGAN KU YA ALLAH .






LOVE ANIS .





TO FUAD BIN AMIRUDDIN

My man

DATE : 16 MARCH 2012
LOCATION : BRUNSFIELD SHAH ALAM
TIME : 11.37 P.M



I MAY BE NOT A PERFECT MUSLIMAH . . . I DO MAKE MISTAKE AND I DO MAKE THINGS

THAT MUSLIM ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO DO . . . BUT AS I WERE REALIZE TODAY LET ME

START THIS POST WITH A GREETING . . .


BISMILLAH IR- RAHMAN IR- RAHIM

( IN THE NAME OF GOD, MOST GRACIOUS, MOST COMPASSIONATE )



ASSALAMU ALAIKUM WA RAHMATULLAHI WA BARAKARTUH

( PEACE BE UPON YOU AND SO MAY THE MERCY OF ALLAH AND HIS BLESSINGS )





THANKS TO ALLAH FOR SENDING 1 PERSON ON THIS EARTH JUST FOR ME AND


TO OPEN MY EYES TO MAKE ME REALIZE IT ENOUGH OF MAKING SINS FOR MY


POOR SOUL . . .  HE WHO CREATED JUST FOR ME THAT CANNOT BE EXCHANGE WITH


A PILE OF GOLD AND A DOZEN OF SOUL . . . 




WHAT IS HIS EFFORT THAT MAKE ME CRY . . . NOT CRY BECAUSE OF SADNESS AND


FULL OF REGRETFULNESS . . . BUT FULL FEELING OF TOUCHES . . . ACTION THAT


TOUCHES MY BROKEN HEART . . . HIS EFFORT . . . HIS ACTION . . . HIS HAPPINESS . . .


HIS COURAGE . . . HIS LIFE . . . AS IF EVERYTHING HE DONE IS JUST FOR ME . . .


AS I AM HIS LIFE . . . MASYALLAH . . . 


I SCOLD HIM . . . I BEAT HIM . . . I THREW A BAD WORD TO HIM . . . I DISOBEY HIM . . .

I MISUNDERSTAND HIM . . . AT THE END OF THE DAY HE SUFFER SO MUCH OF HIS

TIME . . . HIS ENERGY . . . HIS MONEY . . . FOR WHAT ? ? ?

FOR KEEPING ME OCCUPIED THAT WHAT . . . HE WORK TO RAISE ME AS HIS OWN

WIFE EVEN THOUGH I WE ARE STILL NOT A MARRIED COUPLE . . .

WHY ALLAH . . . WHY HE DID NOT FEEL SAD . . . HE DID NOT FEEL BORED . . .

HE DID NOT FEEL I AM HARD TO TAKE CARE OF WHEN EVERY ONE ELSE THINK

I AM THE WORST GIRL IN THIS WORLD ? ? ?

WHY HE IS NOT LIKE EVERY ONE ELSE ? ? ? TIRED OF ME . . .

AM I WHAT IS BEST FOR HIM ? ? ?

AM I HIS PREVIOUS SINS ? ? ?

WHAT IS HE FULL OF PATIENT ? ? ?

YA ALLAH MAKE ME A BETTER MUSLIM . . . A BETTER WIFE FOR HIM . . .

I HAVE COME TO MY REALIZE THAT NO MAN CAN GIVE WHAT HE HAD GIVEN TO ME . . .

I HAVE REALIZE THAT HE IS THE ONLY ONE THAT ALWAYS CHOOSE A BETTER

OPTION FOR ME . . . AND HE NEVER FEELS TIRED OF DOING IT SO . . .


HE NEVER FORGETS ME IN HIS PRAY . . . I FEEL SO APPRECIATED . . . I FEEL SO

TOUCHED . . . WHERE ARE YOU ? ? ? WHY ARE'NT YOU HERE ? ? ?


HE IS WORKING . . .

WHY ARE YOU WORKING ? ? ? YOU HAVE NO TIME FOR ME NOW YOU WANT TO WORK ? ? ?

I DO ALL THIS THINGS BECAUSE OF YOU . . . I WANT YOU AND OUR FUTURE CHILD

LIVE A HAPPY LIFE . . . MY RESPONSIBILITY AS A HUSBAND IS VERY HARD . . .


SAYANG I WERE TOUCHED BY YOUR WORDS . . . I CRY REGRETTING WHAT I'VE DONE

TO YOU THAT MAKE YOU SAD . . .



I LOVE YOU SO MUCH . . .

IF YOU ARE MY HUSBAND ONE DAY THEN I WILL GLADLY DIE IN THE NAME OF

ALLAH AND JIHAD TOWARDS OUR FAMILY ONE DAY . . .  INSYAALLAH . . .

ANIS CHIA

WHAT I NEED !

DATE : 22 FEBRUARY 2012
TIME : 6.30 P.M
LOCATION : TAMAN PUTRA INDAH, SERDANG



TIME . . . TIME . . . TIME . . .

WHY ARE YOU SO EXPENSIVE ? ? ?

I NEED YOU TIME . . . MEMORY SEEMS TO FADE . . . FRIENDS BECOME MORE CLOSE

THAN YOU . . . LIFE BECOME MORE STRESS . . . DARK CIRCLE IS APPEARING . . .

I WISH I WERE AS BUSY AS YOU . . . I WISH I DON'T HAVE HEART . . . SO I WON'T

GET HURT . . . I WONT GET MAD . . . I WONT FEEL WORRY . . . I WONT FEEL LONELY . . .

WITHOUT YOU . . .

THE BAD EFFECT IS I WONT BE LOVING YOU . . . I WONT BE ATTRACTED TO YOU . . .

I WONT BE WITH YOU . . . I WONT CHOOSE YOU . . . AND YOU WOULD'NT BE

PART OF MY LIFE . . .

YOU KNOW WHAT ? ? ?

I THINK IT'S BETTER THAT WAY . . . BECAUSE YOU DON'T EVEN BOTHER . . .

YOU KNOW YOU FEEL ANGRY WHEN SOMEONE LOOK AT ME . . .

YOU KNOW YOU FEEL SAD WHEN I GO OUT WITH OTHER PEOPLE . . .

BUT DO YOU MAKE AN EFFORT TO STAY ? ? ?

YOU DID . . .

BUT IS THAT ENOUGH ? ? ?





I APPRECIATE WHAT HAVE YOU DONE FOR ME . . . ALL THE GOLDEN TIME

THAT YOU SPEND FOR ME . . . I SEE THE EFFORT YOU'VE DONE TOUCHES MY HEART . . .

BUT DID IT ENOUGH ? ? ? I KNOW I CAN'T HAVE ALL THE THINGS I WANTED IN LIFE

SOMETIMES I WISH I COULD . . . BUT I AM TRYING TO ACCEPT MY FAITH BY KEEP

QUIET . . . BY SILENT MOMENT . . . TAKING MY DEEPEST BREATH . . .

IT'S HARD TO ACCEPT THE TRUTH IN LIFE . . . BUT SAYANG I STILL MANAGE

TO LET YOU GO . . . BECAUSE ALLAH HAVE PLAN FOR ME . . . FOR YOU . . .

WE ARE NOT TIED TOGETHER YET . . . BUT MY FEELINGS BLINDED ME . . .

LOVING YOU BEFORE MARRIAGE IS THE HARDEST PART . . . PRETEND TO BE

A LEGAL COUPLE IS JUST A FAIRY TALE . . .





ENOUGH WITH THE FAIRY TALES ALREADY . . . I'M SINCERE IN MY OLDER

RELATIONSHIP . . . BUT THEY LEAVE ME FOR A BETTER PERSON . . . I DON'T

EXPECT YOU TO GIVE ME WHAT I WANT . . . SUCH AS WEALTH . . . I EXPECT

YOU TO GIVE ME WHAT I NEED . . . THE THINGS THAT MY PAST PARTNER DID'NT

GIVE IS THAT . . .  TIME . . . THAT IS ALL I NEED . . .





I JUST HOPE YOU ARE ALL RIGHT . . . MY MISTAKE I CAN'T LET YOU LEAVE WHEN

WE MEET . . . MY MISTAKE I CAN'T ACCEPT IF YOU DON'T DO THE THINGS I WANT . . .

MY MISTAKE I AM MAD IF YOU HAVE OTHER RESPONSIBILITY . . . BECAUSE I

HAVE HEART THAT IS VERY FRAGILE AND SENSITIVE . . . MAY BE THIS RELATIONSHIP

IS JUST A TEST FOR A BETTER PERSON NEXT TIME . . . WHO KNOWS . . .

GOD PLAN EVERYTHING PERFECTLY . . .

NO ONE CAN
BUT I WISH I CAN STOP IT WHEN IM WITH YOU

TIME does not have emotion.

He does not think and

he does not care.

I imagine TIME running

on the track field and

the whole world is chasing after him

yet he is ignorant!

He is the witness of history in making.

Regardless the mood of the events

he remains emotionless passing by.

He does not rest his gaze

upon the trivia around him.

He is such a heartless creature.

He is ageless

and he knows no sickness.

He has been running for …

God knows how long.

He has never stopped and

He needs no rest.

He does not recognize rest.

TIME does not have friend.

No one wants to be his friend

and he needs no friends.

He is a loner

A lone ranger

There are two things I learn from TIME

– PERSISTENCE AND PERSEVERANCE …

and if TIME has a human figure

who would you resemble TIME to?

ALONE

DATE : 5 FEBRUARY
DAY : SUNDAY
TIME : 6.31 P.M
LOCATION : ULU TIRAM, JOHOR



WE YOU EVEN HERE ? ? ? WERE YOU EVEN LISTENING ? ? ? HAVE YOU BEEN WONDERING

WHY I NEEDED A PET TO ALWAYS STAY BESIDE ME ? ? ? BECAUSE YOU NEVER DO . . .

BECAUSE YOU WERE SO BUSY WITH YOUR LIFE . . . BECAUSE I ALONE WERE NEVER

ENOUGH FOR YOU . . . YOU WERE STRESS LIVING INSIDE YOUR OWN HOUSE . . .

SO ARE YOU ARE YOU HAPPY NOW WITHOUT ME WHEN YOU WERE OUTSIDE WITH

YOUR FRIENDS ? ? ?



LOVING YOU IS THE PAINFUL THING I HAVE EVER FEEL . . . I MAKE YOU AS MY LIFE

THE THINGS THAT I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT . . . THE THING THAT MAKE ME STRONGER

. . .

THE THINGS THAT MAKE ME HAPPIER . . . THE THINGS THAT MAKE ME FEEL ALIVE . . .

BUT ARE YOU DOING THE SAME FOR ME ? ? ?

ARE YOU MAKING ME THE ONLY ONE WHO MAKES YOU FEEL VISIBLE ? ? ?

IS MY MISTAKE FOR MAKING YOU THE ONLY ONE I HAVE EVER HAD . . . I SHOULD

HAVE MANY FRIENDS BESIDES YOU . . . JUST TO KEEP ME BUSY . . . THAT IS WHY

I CRIED SO HARD WHEN MY SUGAR GLIDER (BABY MICKEY) DIED . . . I FELT ALONE . . .

USELESS . . . INVISIBLE . . . FORGOTTEN . . .



HAVE YOU EVER APPRECIATE ME ? ? ? ARE YOU HERE ? ? ? ALL I HAVE HEAR FROM

YOU IS I'LL CALL YOU LATER . . . I'LL CALL YOU LATER . . .


I'LL CALL YOU LATER . . . 






WHEN IS GOING TO BE MY TURN TO TALK ? ? ? WHEN ALL YOU DO IS . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

SEE . . . I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT YOU DO . . . WHO AM I NOW FOR YOU . . .

JUST AN ACCESSORY TO YOU ? ? ?




I JUST GOING TO CALM MY MIND . . . DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO . . .

I THINK I WILL SURVIVE WITHOUT YOU . . .

REST IN PEACE

baby mickey

IM HERE! :')

DATE : 8 JANUARY 2012
DAY : SUNDAY
LOCATION : ENSTEK, NILAI
TIME : 4.58 p.m




hmm..where are u NOW?? 


Yaa mmg syg xder kat sebelah bby dan depan bby..
tp pecayelah yang syg ade sentiase ade kat dalam hati bby..
mmg susah buktikan..tp syg tau bby rase syg tetap ade kat dalam hati bby..
care pemikiran manusia berlainan bby..
tp 
bg syg bby terlalu bnyak pikir n then bende tuh yg bnyak bermain dalam fikiran bby.




Mmg buat mase sekarang kite mmg x boleh nak ape yg bby inginkan *bby tau maksud syg kan


But at the same time, selagi kite dalam sesuatu perhubungan..kite kene teroskan walau ape pun yg terjadi.
syg tau bby tgh pk ape skrang nih..
bby mungkin x dpt TUNGGU..




Tp pecayelah Nur Anis,
kalau kasih sayang tuh ikhlas dan tulus,
berape lame lah hubungan tuh berlansung,
bby sanggup tunggu smpai ending yang bby inginkan..




Syg seriously ssh nak luahkan ape yg syg rase, 
sebab syg tau kalau syg luahkan pun,
bby x leh wat pape,
so i decide to keep in my heart..
biar syg sakit hati n kecewe n trase..


TAPI JGN BBY RASE MCM TUH!!!




Thats my promise yg bby leh nmpak skrang..
syg sanggup buat ape saje utk gembirekan bby..




Syg tau kalau bby selalu bnyak pikir,
mmg syg lah tempat kne hentam dgn pemikiran yg negatif tuh.
tp x pe..
seperti mane yg syg bgtau bby..I KNOW U!!.
so bg syg bende tuh dh mule lali ngn syg..
ape yg syg leh buat, syg leh nasihatkan bby..
mmg syg xder kat sebelah bby, but syg yakin bby leh STOP pikir yg bukan2..




Perasaan yg syg sendri x tau ape bende, tibe2 dpt pagi td..
psal kes pagi td tuh mmg syg trkejut tibe2 bby ckp bby bnyak pikir..




Kalau syg ade kat sane, syg dh lame GONCANG bby tau x!!!
mule2 mmg rase GERAM gile..tp syg pikir balik itu bukan care yg baik tok bby..


I KNOW U mcm mane!!


so i decide supaye bg bby relax n bg tau "JANGAN BNYAK PIKIR K BBY, G TIDO!!"
but u just ignore..
syg time uh x tau nak wat ape lagi..hmm 
syg hanye boleh bertawakal dan berserah kat ALLAH..


Sayang,
im so worried bout u bile bby nak bgtau yg bby nak kuar g Alamanda..
Omangaii!!! tokojut den!..dh la syg risau psal bby sbb bby time uh tgk bnyak pikir,
pastuh nak kuar plak..hmm


syg bukan ape, im just worried bout u!..
yaa..bby ckp bnyak kali  "IM OK"!!..zzz
itu ayat paling syg agak2 meluat.
because of What!!


-syg tau la bby cm ner..syg kenal bby!
-syg dpt rase ape yg bby rase
-bby dh ade half of my soul.


-sebab I LOVE U SO MUCH! *melody Nur anis


kalau syg x der kat sisi bby, syg harap bby dapat jage diri bby baik2..
mmg syg x der kat sebelah bby, tp syg nak bby tau yg syg 


SENTIASE ADE DALAM HATI NUR ANIS!!!!


I so worried bout u & I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BBY! :')

*nie muke time die risaukan kite..

comel sgt smpai syg xsanggup nak kecewe hatikan Nur Anis :')

i miss u <3

-your lovely Fiance-

TRUE ❤

DATE : 6 JANUARY 2012
DAY : FRIDAY
LOCATION : BRUNSFIELD
TIME : 1.16 p.m

          HAVE YOU EVER WONDER YOU WOULD MEET SOMEONE LIKE ME ? ? ?


HAVE YOU EVER WONDER TO MARRIED SOMEONE LIKE ME ? ? ? AM I WHAT YOU


FIND AFTER ALL THIS YEARS ? ? ? DID I APPEAR AS WHAT YOU EXPECTED ? ? ?


^_^




NO!


I'M DIFFERENT . . .


YOUR FIRST IMPRESSION ON ME . . .


I AM A SOCIAL GIRL


I WILL COST YOU A LOT OF MONEY


I AM NOT THE TYPE OF GIRL YOU WANNA MAKE AS YOUR WIFE


IT'S HARD TO BE HANDLE




BUT IT'S OK FOR ME . . . THANK YOU FOR TAKING THE RISK TO KNOW ME . . . THANK


YOU FOR NOT JUDGING THE BOOK BY IT'S COVER . . . 




TRUE LOVE.........


WHAT IS TRUE LOVE ? ? ?

TRUE LOVE IS SOMETHING THAT EVERYONE WANTS TO FEEL . . .THE 

MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS THAT HAPPEN TO SOMEONE . . . IT IS MORE

THEN FALLING IN LOVE . . . FIRST IS TRUST . . . I HAVE TRUSTED

YOU SO MUCH THAT I AM TAKING THE RISK BY GIVING YOU MY LIFE,

MY TIME, MY LOVE, MY HEART AND MY SOUL TO BE WITH YOU

IN THIS LIFE AND THE AFTER LIFE . . . 

HOW I KNOW YOU ARE MY TRUE LOVE . . .

BECAUSE EVERY PROBLEM THAT WE FACE . . . YOU MAKES IT A TEST

FOR THE FEELINGS AND 

STRENGTHEN OUR RELATIONSHIP . . .

YOU STAND UP FOR MY PRIDE . . . YOU BRING MY TRUST BACK . . .

WHEN I FORGET THERE IS STILL EXIST A PEOPLE LIKE YOU . . .

I THOUGHT THERE IS NO ONE CAN BE TRUST NOWADAYS . . . BUT . . .

YOU! MAKES ME BELIEVE IN  EVERY WORD YOU SAID . . . YOU! NEVER

BROKE YOUR PROMISES . . .  WHILE OTHER HAVE BROKE ALL THE 

PROMISES THEIR MADE . . . THAT'S WHY YOU ARE SO MUCH MORE

DIFFERENT THEN ALL OF THEM . . . WHAT THEY SAID IS EMPTY . . .

AN EMPTY PROMISES . . . SO CRUEL . . . SO COLD . . . SO DISAPPOINTED

WHEN WE CHOOSE A DIFFERENT PERSON . . . 

TRUE LOVE IS CARE . . .

I AM SO IN LOVE WITH YOU BECAUSE YOU 

MAKE EVERYTHING THAT HAPPEN TO ME

FEELS FINE AND LOVED WHEN THAT TIME

I FEEL SO UNSECURED AND SCARED . . .

DID I NEED A REASON TO LOVE YOU ? ? ?

I FEEL EVERY HEARTBEATS FROM YOUR HEART . . . OUR HEART BEATS 

AT THE SAME TIME . . . 

SAYANG . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 

LIKE I TOLD YOU . . . YOU ARE ALLAH'S GREATEST CREATION THAT BEEN 

CREATED ONLY FOR ME! 

THE GREATEST VERSION OF MY LIFE

THE GREATEST FEELINGS IS BE WITH YOU EVERY SINGLE TIME . . .

IF MY FRIENDS ASK ME TO GO OUT WITH THEM . . . . I WON'T GO BECAUSE

I WANT TO SKYPE WITH YOU . . . 

LOOK AT ME SAYANG . . . . . . . 

I WANTED TO BE THE BEST WOMAN IN YOUR LIFE . . .

THE GREATEST WIFE . . .

I WON'T LEAVE YOU . . . SO THAT ONE DAY WHEN I FINALLY ENDING MY 

LIFE . . . MEETING OUR CREATOR . . . LAYING ON THE HOSPITAL BED . . .

LOOKING SO PALE . . . WRINKLE ALL OVER MY FACE . . . WITH OUR CHILD 

BY MY SIDE . . . I WILL SAID TO THEM . . .

CHILD DO YOU WANNA KNOW SOMETHING ? ? ?

YOUR FATHER WON'T LEAVE ME . . . DO YOU KNOW WHY ? ? ?

BECAUSE ........................

I NEVER LEAVE HIM ❤

THAT IS HOW I KNOW YOU ARE THE ONE FOR ME!