THINGS I DO TO EASE MY HEART !

DATE : 25 APRIL 2012
TIME : : 10:35 P.M
DAY : WEDNESDAY
LOCATION : BRUNSFIELD




PEOPLE AROUND ALWAYS KEEP ME ACCOMPANY . . . BUT YET THEY STILL HAVE NOT


MAKES MY HEART TO THE DEEPEST EASE . . .


WHEN YOU WERE HERE I GO OUT WITH MY FRIENDS SEEM TO BE A VERY


ENJOYABLE THINGS TO DO . . . 


BUT WHEN YOU WERE NOT HERE I O OUT WITH MY FRIENDS SEEM TO BE NOTHING


BUT EMPTY . . .


HAVE YOU PUT A CHARM ON ME ? ? ? 


TODAY YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE HERE IN MALAYSIA ALREADY BUT YET


ALLAH WANTED TO TEST MY PATIENT TOWARDS HIS TEST . . .


HE MAKE YOUR FLIGHT DELAY BY 7 HOURS . . . 


I ACCEPT IT AS THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO . . . ALLAH IS ALMIGHTY . . .


ALL THE UNIVERSE BOW DOWN BEFORE HIM . . .



I AM JUST AN AVERAGE GIRL THAT WAITING HER LOVE ONES TO COME BACK


MALAYSIA TO BE HUG , TO BE KISS , TO BE LOVE AND TO BE HOLD . . .


WHAT I CAN DO IS JUST PRAY PRAY PRAY TO ALLAH SO YOU HAVE


A SAVE JOURNEY BACK HERE . . .



I MAY BE STUPID TO WHO EVER THAT READ THIS . . . THAT IS BECAUSE I WROTE


THIS BLOG WITHOUT AN EGO TOWARDS MY SELF . . .  


WHEN YOU SAY THAT  " I KNOW YOU MISS ME RITE " I REPLIED   " NO"


THAT IS BECAUSE THE WORDS IS FULL WITH EGO AND PRIDE . . .


IM SORRY I LET MY EGO GO TO YOU . . .


SINCE YOU WERE NOT HERE I HAVE BECOME A GOOD GIRL ^_^ . . .


I NEVER GO OUT LATE AT NIGHT . . .


I DID MY ASSIGNMENT WELL . . .


I OFTEN CLEAN MY BED . . .


I SLEEP EARLY . . .


I  CALL MY MUM AND MY DAD OFTEN . . .


I PRAY HARD . . .


OUH AND I EVEN WEAR MY HIJAB TO CLASS . . .


HEEE ^_^ . . .



BUT . . .


 WHEN YOU WERE NOT HERE


I LOST MY APPETITE


I HAVE NOT  COOK IN MY HOUSE


I OFTEN ONLINE IN CLASS BECAUSE I WANT TO BE THERE WHEN YOU ONLINE


I HAVE NOT BEEN EATING RICE OFTEN


I HARDLY BECOME EASY TO GET SICK







I MISS YOU . . . YOU KNOW . . .


JUST NOW I BECOME LIKE CRAZY PERSON . . .


I TALK TO A VIDEO . . .


THE VIDEO YOU MAKE FOR ME . . . I TRANSFER IT TO MY PHONE SO IT BECOME


EASY TO WATCH WHEN EVER I FEEL ALONE . . .

THIS VIDEO MY FAVOURITE PART IS WHEN 4:55 TILL THE END . . . AND I ANSWER


IT . . . I SAID "I LOVE YOU TO SO MOUCH ~     SAYANGGG~ ( MY MELODY )


HMMM . . . CRAZY ME . . . THANKS FOR THE VIDEO . . . I LOVE IT . . .




I NEVER REALIZE WHAT I HAVE UNTIL ITS GONE . . . I CAN FINISH A LOT OF MONEY


JUST TO CALL YOU . . . JUST TO HEAR YOUR VOICE . . .




CAN YOU FEEL WHAT I FEEL ? CAN YOU TELL ME WHAT I FEEL ? I PRAY TO ALLAH


ONCE JUST TO MAKE YOU APPEAR IN MY DREAMS . . . BUT YOU DID NOT


BECAUSE I CAN NOT HARDLY REMEMBERED . . .




THEN I LOOK AT THE VIDEO THAT YOU MAKE ON OUR ENGAGEMENT ANNIVERSARY


SUDDENLY I SMILE . . . 


MEMORIES DOES NOT FADE . . .


I REMEMBERED THAT YOU WERE DRAWING IT WHEN WE WERE SKYPING . . .


I ASK YOU " WHAT ARE YOU WRITING DOWN THERE ? "


THEN YOU SAID " IT WAS MY ASSIGNMENT "


YOU LIED TO SURPRISE ME . . . 


I AM TRULY GRATEFUL  TO HAVE YOU AS MY FIANCÉ AND MY FUTURE WIFE . . .




I EVEN ACT LIKE A PERVERT HEHEHEHE !


I ALWAYS GO TO YOUR FACEBOOK PROFILE JUST TO SEE YOUR LATEST PICTURE


AND DOWNLOAD IT WITHOUT YOUR PERMISSION . . . 


SORRY I CAN'T HELP IT . . .




THIS IS THE COLLECTION OF YOUR PICTURE THAT I TOOK 

WAITING FOR YOU WITH LOVE . . .

5 DAYS WITHOUT HIM

DATE : 20 APRIL 2012
DAY : FRIDAY
TIME : 7.26
LOCATION : BRUNSFIELD




ASSALAMUALAIKUM

DAH MASUK HARI YANG KELIMA DAH DIA PERGI KE MEKAH MENGERJAKAN

UMRAH . SO SAYA AS USUAL MENUNGGU AND MENGIRA HARI KEPULANGAN DIA .

TAK TAHU NAK BAGI SURPRISE APE NANTI TIME DIA BALIK . HMMM ANY

SUGGESTION GUYS NAK BAGI APA ? SEBAB GUYS LAH YANG TAHU BARANG GUYS

KAN . HMMM


AQ TENGAH MAKAN BUBUR KOSONG DENGAN AYAM GORENG ( SAVE BUDJET )

HAHAHA . SEDIH TUNANG AQ KALAU DENGAR SEBAB DIA BAGI AQ DUIT

NAFKAH :)  HEEE.. OUH AND SOME COCA COLA . AHAHHAHA AIR DIA

GRAND PULAK KIHKIHKIH .



5 HARI LAGI.... 5 HARI LAGI .... SABAAAAAAAAAA ......

LAMANYA ....... :(


HMMM TAK PE LAH BIAR AQ TERLEBIH TIDUR 10 HARI NI ......

TIME DIA TAK DE NIE AQ TIDUR AWAL SANGAT2 .....

MALAM NIE MEMBER KELAS AJAK G KAROKE... NAK NYANYI LAGU

CINTA-MENCINTAI DARI NURUL & AJAI LAH.... HUHUHU


DULU AQ TAK SUKA KAROKR SEBAB MALU, SUARA TAK SEDAP AND TAK DE

FEEL ....

TAPI SEJAK2 NIE AQ TAHU DYE NAK G UMRAH DAN AQ TAHU NANTI AQ

KESEORANGAN AQ G LA KAROKE TETIBE MACAM BEST LAK.... HEEEE

DULU TUNANG AQ SUKA G KAROKE ....

TIME KITORANG BARU2 KENAL DULU 1ST TIME G KAROKE DEKAT

ALAMANDA LAH DENGAN MEMBER DYE (AIZAT) , DYE , MEMBER AQ AND AKU .

TIME TU AQ BAD MOOD SEBAB AQ TAK SUKA G KAROKE LAGI LA KAN...



CIAN DYE TAK LEH KAROKE SEBAB AQ .... DYE PUJUK AQ PUNYA PASAL ....

HEEEE AQ INGAT LAGI TIME AQ MAJUK AQ NAK G TANDAS

PASTU AQ TERPERGI TANDAS KAT BOWLING TU ....

DIA CALL AQ PASTU CAKAP DALAM NADA EMERGENCY

" BBY, BBY KAT MANA DATANG SINI JAP URGENT "


AQ PON BERGEGAS LAH KELUAR NASIB BAIK AQ DAH HABIS URUSAN HAHAHAHA

AQ PON KELUAR RUPANYA DIA TUNGGU KAT TANDAS BAWAH ESCALATOR ....

PASTU AQ CAKAP APA HAL ? APA HAL ?

SEKALI DYE CAKAP " NOTHING BUT I'M SO WORRY ABOUT YOU "   -_-''




TU JE URGENT DYE .... HAIYAAA ... HAHAHAHA.... BILA FIKIR KAN BALIK

NAK MARAH PON MACAM TAK GUNA KETAWE JE LAH TIME TU ....

HAHAHA ..... HAISH.... TERINGAT LAK ZAMAN DULU2 ....

OUH TIME TU DYE NAK BELI BAJU UNTUK HALOWEEN PARTY ....

^_^ ....

SAYANG NANTI BALIK DARI UMRAH KITA G KAROKE EA ........

HEEEEEEEEEE..............

FUAD I LOVE YOU

I CAN'T CONTROL MY SELF FROM STOP CRYING . . .

I TRY TO BE STRONG FOR 3 DAYS . . .

BUT FINALLY IM GETTING WEAKER IN A MINUTE . . .

YOU .............

I WOULD GO A THOUSAND MILE JUST TO SEE YOU IN REAL LIFE . . .

I WOULD SPEND A THOUSAND MONEY JUST TO TALK TO YOU . . .

I WOULD SACRIFICE MY LIFE JUST TO KEEP YOU ALIVE . . .

BECAUSE I KNOW YOU WILL DO THE SAME FOR ME . . .


WHEN YOU ARE HERE I JUST IGNORE YOU . . .

WHEN YOU ARE HERE I JUST SCOLD YOU WITHOUT CARE ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS . . .

WHEN YOU WERE HERE YOU ALWAYS BECOME MY VICTIM TO RELEASE MY

ANGER . . .




BUT NOW ......................


EVERYTHING SEEMS SO DARK . . .

WITH NO LIGHT FROM YOUR LOVE . . .

SEEING YOU JUST ONLINE MAKES MY HEART STOP AS IF I WILL NEVER SEE THAT

AGAIN . . .

NOW YOU'RE NOT HERE I CHERISH EVERY MINUTE I HAVE WITH YOU . . .

A MINUTE SEEMS ENOUGH TO KEEP ME WARM . . .

WILL YOU LEAVE ME AGAIN ?




NOW I KNOW WHAT THE MEANING OF APPRECIATE SOMEONE THAT LOVE YOU

BEFORE THEY GONE . . .

DAY WITHOUT HIM

DATE : 18 APRIL 2012
DAY : WEDNESAY
TIME : 8.03 P.M
LOCATION : BRUNSFIELD SHAH ALAM



ASSALAMUALAIKUM ^^


HARI NI NAK BUAT BLOG DALAM BAHASA MELAYU PULAK LAH . SELALU YANG

GUNA BLOG SAYA DALAM BAHASA MELAYU NI TUNANG SAYA JE FUAD BIN AMIRUDDIN

HUH !

SEBUT JE NAMA DYE DAH BERLINANGAN AIR MATA . FUHHHH ! SABAR SABAR .

OK THE BEST MOMENT TIME 14hb APRIL 2012 SABTU TIME DYE NAK HANTAR PERGI

MELAKA BERCUTI DENGAN FAMILY SAYA . TIME TU MERAJUK DENGAN DIA SEBAB

NAK BAWAK KERETA HUHU. KESIAN DIA KENA LAYAN KERENAH SAYA .

PASTU TIME DYE NAK MERISIK SAYA DEKAT MELAKA TU, PUNYA LAH MENGELABAH

HADOI TU LAH KALAU EGO SANGAT TU MAKAN NYA . HAHAHA . TAPI SAYA

MEMANG SALUTE DIA SEBAB DIA BERANI TAMPIL DEPAN PARENT SAYA UNTUK

ASK FOR MY HAND . SO ROMANTIK KAN . MY MUM TIME TU TERUS BAGI

NASIHAT DULU BUKAN NYA NAK BAGI JAWAPAN . KESIAN ORANG TU INGAT

DIA TAK DI TERIMA KUT . HEHEHE . TAPI NASIB BAIK MY PARENT SAY YES




DIA LAH HARTA SAYA DUNIA AKHIRAT . HMMM THE SADNESS PART IS TIME

16hb APRIL TU .


THE DAY DIA PERGI MAKKAH MENGERJAKAN UMRAH ~


DAH LAH TAK DAPAT TENGOK DIA PERGI AIRPORT . PASTU SAYA LAK DALAM KELAS

HUH MEMANG DUGAAN BETUL LAH . YA ALLAH TOLONG LAH KURANG KAN DUGAAN

KU IN YA ALLAH .


OK YANG FIRST FIRST TU SAYA OK LAGI . ''AQ BOLEH HIDUP KALAU DIA JAUH''

TIME FIRST DAY JE LAH MASUK 2nd DAY SAYA DAH MULA CARI AKTIVITI UNTUK

MELUPAKAN DIA SEKEJAP . HAH NI DAH 3rd DAY DAH DYE X DE . AIYAAAAAA .

APA LAGI SAYA NAK BUAT NIE . FIKIR PUNYA FIKIR . OK LAH MALAM NI RASA

MACAM NAK PERGI TENGOK WAYANG DENGAN KAWAN-KAWAN .


ADA LAGI 7 HARI LAGI HARI2 YANG PERLU SAYA TEMPUH . ADUH . HMMM

ADUH DUGAAN BETUL LAH BILA BERJAUHAN DENGAN YANG TERSAYANG NI .

YA ALLAH AKU NAK CEPAT2 KAWIN ( KALAU MAK AKU DENGAR MESTI DIA CAKAP

KO DAH KENAPA GATAL SANGAT DAH ) KIHKIHKIH . BUKAN APA HIDUP NI

MACAM DAH TAK LENGKAP PULAK . ADUH .


LAGI2 BILA KAWAN2 SATU RUMAH NI DOK BERGAYUT LELAMA NGAN PASANGAN

MASING2 . RUMAH SEWA SAYA NIE RUMAH DIGI HAHAHA . SEMUA ORANG PAKAI

DIGI SEBAB BOLEH BERGAYUT 24 HOURS . SAYA NIE TIME DIA ADE KAT SINI MEMANG

LAH BERGAYUT JE KERJA NYA . TAPI DYE DAH TAKDE KAT SINI DYE PERGI

UMRAH TINGGAL LAH SAYA KAT SINI . HMM


NANTI DYE DAH BALIK TAK GAYUT DENGAN SAYA SIAP LAH DYE HAHAHA .

SAYANG BBY RINDU SANGAT2 KAT SAYANG .

SAYA NGAN TUNANG SYE NIE MANJA2 SIKIT HUHU !

OK LAH NAK P TENGOK WAYANG .


RESTU LAH HUBUNGAN KU YA ALLAH .






LOVE ANIS .





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