AS IF A GUN SHOT ON MY HEAD... WHAT A TRAGEDY... AM I TO BAD???
AM I VERY BAD??? AM I THE WORST??? AM I???
I AM HERE TO OPEN UP YOUR HEART DEAR MOTHER AND FATHER OF MY BELOVED
FIANCE FROM YOUR TYPICAL MALAY THINKING...
I AM NOT THAT EDUCATED LIKE YOU ALL DO...
I AM NOT REACH AS YOU ALL DO...
I HAVE A HAPPY AND LOVING FAMILY SINCE I WAS BORN...
MY MOM AND DAD USED TO STRUGGLE SO MUCH TO BECOME A SOMEONE...
NO BLESSING FROM THEIR PARENT AS MY FATHER WERE CHINESE...
BUT HE WORK VERY HARD TO EARN FOR A LIVING AND AT LAST BE WITH MY MOTHER
ALTHOUGH IT IS QUITE TOUGH... THEY MAKE THEIR WAY OF HAVING A FAMILY..
THEY OPEN MY KONGKONG'S AND MAMA ( MY FATHER'S MOM N DAD ) HEART BY
GIVING LIFE TO MY ELDER SISTER NUR ADILA... THE FIRST GRANDDAUGHTER...
THEN MY MAMA'S HEART OPEN AND CARE SO MUCH FOR MY UNBORN SISTER...
THEY DID NOT MEET SO EASY LIKE YOU DO AUNTY AND UNCLE...
THEY WERE GOOD PEOPLE AND WERE BLESS WITH 3 DAUGHTER... IM THE SECOND...
THEY GO THRU LOTS OF ROUGH ROAD IN THEIR LIFE BEFORE HAVING A NICE ONE...
I UNDERSTAND THAT YOU HAVENT HAD SO ROUGH TIME MEETING UP EACH
OTHER BEFORE MARRIED... YOUR FAMILY MEET BY MATCH MAKING AND
LEAVE A HAPPY LIFE... YOU CANNOT TREAT A YOUNG GENERATION LIKE THAT...
PEOPLE CHANGE SO DO ENVIRONMENT...
I START HAVING A CULTURE SHOCK SINCE I BREAK UP WITH MY EX ON
OCTOBER 2012 BEFORE I MEET YOUR SON ON 14 OCTOBER 2012... I STARTED TO
CLUB BECAUSE OF STRESS DUE TO MY PREVIOUS RELATIONSHIP... IT IS
NOT MY PARENTS FAULT... IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MY FAMILY...
THEN I MEET YOUR SON (FUAD BIN AMIRUDDIN) ON THE 14TH WITH HIS
FRIENDS AT MOS... HE CALL ME TO DANCE WITH HIM WHEN I WAS HIGH...
HE WAS ON THINGS THAT NIGHT... WE WERE EXCHANGING NUMBER THAT DAY
AND NOW WE STILL STICK TOGETHER...
YOU SAID I AM NOT A GOOD MUSLIM... I UNDERSTAND... HOW CRUEL ARE YOU
TO BREAK YOUR SON'S HEART ??? I HAVE DONE NOTHING WRONG TO HIM...
I'VE CHANGE BECAUSE OF ALLAH WITH HIS HELP... IS THAT SO WRONG ???
STILL YOU CANT ACCEPT SOMEONE IS CHANGING TO BE A BETTER PERSON ??
YOU SHOULD BE PROUD THAT YOU SON HAD MADE SOMEONE'S HEART OPEN TO
THE RIGHT PATH... HE LOVE ME AS MUCH AS I DO TO HIM... I AM AM SO SINCERE
TO HIS HEART... BUT BECAUSE OF YOU MY HEART HAS BROKEN SO MANY TIMES...
ONE DAY YOU WILL REALIZE WHEN I AM NOT HERE ANY MORE YOU WILL
ASKING FORGIVENESS TO ALLAH FOR SEPARATING US...
HOW SURE ARE YOU TO CHOOSE A MATCH FOR YOU SON ??? WILL HE BE HAPPY IN
THE FUTURE ??? YOU ARE GOING TO CHOOSE A GOOD MUSLIMAH ???
WITH THE HIJAB ALL THAT ??? WILL SHE ACCEPT YOUR SON WHEN SHE KNOWS
EVERYTHING ABOUT YOUR SON'S PAST ??? SHE WILL DOUBT THAT YOUR FAMILY
ARE NOT A GOOD MUSLIM TO JUST LIKE YOU DOUBT MY FAMILY...
WE CHANGE SO MUCH TO BE A GOOD ISLAM... I NEVER LOOK BACK ON MY PAST
SO SHOULD YOU... WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO ACCEPT THE FAITH IF YOU
KEEP ON LOOKING BACK ??? LET BYGONE BE BYGONE... IF I CAN CHANGE THIS
WORLD BACK I'LL BE WHAT YOU WANT... BUT UNFORTUNATELY I CAN'T...
STOP TALKING ABOUT OUR PAST... YOU ARE PARENT... AUNTY -----> YOU SAID
YOU KNOW YOUR SON WHEN YOU CALL ME THAT DAY... WHAT YOU KNOW ???
NOTHING??? IF YOU KNOW YOUR SON THEN YOUR FAMILY SHOULD'NT BE
CRACKING ISNT IT....
WHAT WILL YOU DO WHEN YOU ARE IN THE SAME SITUATION LIKE US??? JUST
GIVE UP??? ARE A QUITTER ??? YOU HAVE BEEN TRAVELLING TO SO MUCH
PLACES... THEN YOU SHOULD SEE THE WORLD HOW FAST THE WORLD HAD CHANGE..
HE DONT WANT TO LOOSE YOU NOR ME... BUT YOU THE ONE THAT FORCE HIM TO
CHOOSE... NOW I'LL DECIDE WHAT IS IT GONNA BE... I WILL NEVER LEAVE HIM
UNLESS YOU "REDHA" WITH OUR RELATIONSHIP... BUT I HAVE TO GIVE UP
MY SOUL FOR THE SAKE OF YOUR FAMILY... I HAVE TO SACRIFICE A LOT FOR MY
YOUR IMMATURE THINKING... WOULD YOU BE HAPPY THEN??? EVEN ALLAH FORGIVE
EVERY SINS THAT WE DO WHY CANT YOU... HMMMM
PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOUR SON FOR ME BECAUSE I KNOW BEFORE THIS
YOU NEVER DO... ALL YOU DID IS JUST BLAMING HIM TO SATISFIED YOUR
ANGER... SHAME ON YOU... SO PLEASE TAKE CARE OF HIM HE LOOK SAD WHEN
IM GONNA LEFT...
HE SAID THE ONLY PERSON WHO CARE IN HIS FAMILY IS HIS LITTLE SISTER
TO MY BELOVED FIANCE
I CHERISH EVERY MOMENT WITH YOU... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND GOD KNOWS
I DO... LET ME BECOME YOUR SWEETEST MEMORY FOR YOU... NO ONE CAN
REPLACE YOU... THANK YOU FOR ALL THE JOY...
IN MEMORY
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